[ * jess jess * ]

birthday

2011-02-20T18:40:00.004+08:00

我好气、好闷。我现在只想找个地方来发泄。

我的生日就快到了，可是家里却没有一人在乎。

当我再一次向爸爸提起时，他给我的答案既然是：我红包给你二十块就好了，今年什么庆祝都没有。

我真个人几乎傻掉了，心想着这句话是我最敬爱的爸爸说的话吗？

他这么可以这样说？我不是乞丐啊，我不是在向你乞讨。

二十块对我来说，算什么？

我要的是你的祝福、是你身为一个父亲对女儿期许，不是你的钱！

倘若你真的给了我这二十块，只要是你真心诚意的祝福，我当然会欣然接受。

就算是一包糖、一碗面线，我也会很开心的。

可是你却只是在敷衍我，这才是我最最痛心的地方。

我并不是要邀功，可是我觉得真的真的很委屈。

平时家里的家务和杂事，都是我在做、我在帮忙。

谁谁谁需要帮忙的时候，我也会是第一个站出来。

谁谁谁做错事时，我也会站出来顶罪。

我也好想做个千金小姐啊，可是情况根本不应许我翘脚，什么都不用做、什么都不用帮忙。

你明明就看在眼里，为什么要假装不知道？

我不指望你责备任何人，因为他们是我的家人，可是你能不能对我有多一点的关心，公平一点点？

都是你的女儿，可为什么待遇却是如此不一样呢？

你知道吗，每当我和妈妈出去逛街时，只要是我看到喜欢的东西，妈妈都会买给我。

她会买给我不是因为她宠我，更不是因为我任性地要她买给我，而是因为她知道我辛苦了。

可是我却从来都没有贪过任何一样礼物，我只接受该属于我的东西，像是我的生日礼物或是圣诞礼物。

为什么你不能像妈妈那样地安慰我，明白我、关心我呢？

我们不能选择自己的家人、自己的父母。

可是如果时间能再倒来，我还是希望能做你的女儿。

我只是不希望自己再是排行最后的一个了。

PS: 我需要的是一个能将心比心的人。

school

2010-11-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

hi fellow readers!
i'm back once again:)

fyi, dis's my first time blogging through my itouch.
it's quite user friendly i think?

anyway, it's week5 dis week.
school has been pretty hectic.
i'm still trying to get used to it.
mondays and fridays are definitely not my favourite days of de week!
and as usual, every tuesday will be my workout week:)

in less den a month's time, i'll be heading off to my desired japan!
i realli can't wait for dec11 to arrive:D
till den, i must keepup my attendance to de best!

alrighty, blog updated.
turning in! goodnight~

japan

2010-10-28T19:32:00.008+08:00

hi peeps!

i noe i haven't been updating for my space for quite a while.

it's kinda dead right? LOL!

but who cares man? i noe there are still people out there who still wana read up about my life;D

alrighty, i shall start from de latest, if only i can still recall.

japan's trip is confirmed!

i'll be flying off on de 11th of dec and coming back on de 16th of dec.

we wanted to extend our trip to hokkaido but as usual, it's too late as there were no more seats.

honestly speaking, japan's trip won't be able to materialize without god's help.

we'll always book our tickets only in 1months' time wif at least 20px and wif Singapore Airlines.

somemore, we can only leave on de nov and dec(peak period).

wif dat, it makes de agency even tougher to find seats for us.

even for de korea trip, we were also placed on de waiting list.

soo, i'm grateful dat god listened to my prayers.

you wouldn't noe how much dis japan trip means to me.

as a young little girl, i had always wanted to visit tokoyo's disneyland.

i guess, it's a dream in all child.

at de age of 19, my dream will be fulfilled!

finishing wif my japan's trip update, i'll be talking about school!

yea, school had reopened for 2weeks after 2months of holidays.

modules had been quite relaxed lately.

except for cloud computing, others seemed fine to me.

cloud computing and IS will never be my forte. Haa.

coming 3years of tertiary education, we'll all be graduating in few months' time.

dis means we'll all be parting soon.

some will be furthering their studies while mostly will be joining de workforce.

it's time for everybody to give some thoughts of our future:)

thanks diary.

goodnight!

mum

2010-09-26T22:31:00.004+08:00

dear diary, how does it feels when ur mum doesn't trust you?

heart-wrenching? watever? total disappointment?

i'm turning 20 veri soon, forever still a kid in her eyes and i can totally understand why.

but i guess it's pretty important dat people accepts for who you are, especially from ur family.

yes, family.

you can get de least respect from ur friends but not my family.

only family dun hide, only family accepts, only family...

my dad fares up for no reason, my mum gets emotionally unstable, my bro complains.

my life dun get to breathe normally like wat teens are doing out there!

it's all about grumbling, complaining and scolding.

noe wat? i'm realli getting sick and tired of all these shits i'm facing all these while.

i devoted all my time and effort on dis family dat i called home.

i dun expect for any return, hoping for a tiny little bit of appreciation.

but all i had gotten will be dissatisfaction and backstabbing.

is dis wat a family is like? should be like? can be like?

i hate, i detest.

i can't choose my family.

i think i realli need some chill out;(

it's good to have you around diary.

anyway, thanks diary.

goodnight.

sad

2010-09-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

hi folks, it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

anyway, house's renovation is kinda completed.

at least, all de major works are completed already.

furnitures are still yet to be filled.

DADDY! WHERE'S MY QUEEN BED!!!

soo, 3weeks of torture has ended and dat means i can start to enjoy my holidays.

though i'm like only left wif barely 3weeks? haa.

many friends had been heading out of singapore.

and guess wat i'm doing at home? chasing all de dramas i had left out for de past few months.

time is definitely not spent fruitfully. LOL!

speaking about my newly furnished home, it's pretty standard.

like a wardrobe, kitchen cabinets, tv consoles, dining table, bed, doors.

only great diff will de floor tiles i guess.

complete change for de whole house.

it's hard to describe here soo i'll upload photos when everything is up and ready:)

ohya. tell you guys a shocking news.

i sold off my fat pig.

since de renovation ended, my dad never allowed my fat pig to stay wif us no more.

it's been a year and i knew he was tolerating as well.

it's not like he hates pets but he dun like to have pets at home.

when we were young, he never allowed us to keep pets.

anyway, i sold lele to a girl who has a girl guinea pig at home too.

she's de best candidate of all who made inquiries.

i noe i'm being veri cruel to her but since i can't keep her anymore, i'll sure find her a responsible parent and i'm sure i did it.

nothing can express my love for my fat pig, for she is de one and only fat pig i had ever kept;(

soo sian

2010-09-02T15:01:00.002+08:00

good day everybody.

finally i'm back to my space huh.

it was Teachers' Day yst.

oh, how long have i missed Teachers' Day? i can't remember.

2years? 3years?

i haven't been back to MacPherson Sec for quite some time.

it's a place where i would never wana return.

too much memories for me to bear.

great thing dat i had left there for good.

soo wat's up wif my holidays?

i had been staying at home looking after de renovation works in my house.

it's a great mess actually.

everywhere is soo dusty and dirty.

i can't believe i'm actually living in such a condition.

how much vacuum-ing can't change de amount of dust as well.

anyway, as promised by dad, dis whole extreme turnover thing will end in 3weeks' time.

i'm jus sick and tired of all these.

but it's too late to shout a stop to it:(((

renovation

2010-08-19T16:28:00.002+08:00

hye peeps:)

starting from next week, it'll be all about pack, packing, packed!!!

finally after 10years, dad is willing to spend time for a turnover for our house.

bad news will be, i'll be losing my freedom becoz dad says he needs me to be around to supervise de progress.

soo it makes not much diff even if i'm having my holidays or perhaps, it's even worse.

though i had grown up wif dad's bangalas, it still feels weird to be jus alone wif them. LOL!

luckily, sis will be sharing dis torture wif me luh. Haa.

anyway, i'm realli looking forward to my new room!

there'll be a queen-sized bed, wider wardrobe, dressing table, full-length mirror:)))

i'm sure gonna invite my BFF to my new house!

ohya there's another bad news.

my fat pig will be leaving us on sat.

i can't bear to leave her, same goes to my mum.

she has been my mum's best companion all these while.

i can't imagine de days without her:(((

we had all got used to have her around, chipping like a bird, running dumbly.

it's gonna be like 1month plus without her, depending on de renovation's progress.

i dun even noe if my dad will allow me to bring her back when de house is done:(((

wat i can now for her is to find a most appropriate person to take care of her temporary.

dis person will be non other den VICTOR, my sis's university classmate.

he has many many pets at home soo i guess my fat pig will be taken into good care ba.

FYI: fypj will be ending 2moro!

friday 13th

2010-08-13T13:07:00.002+08:00

it's Friday de 13th today.
soo does it means dat it's a bad day today?
nah i doubt soo, everyday seems to be de same to me.

completed my final presentation for fypj yst.
basically everyone in my lab presented yst.
officially, fypj only ends next week.
unofficially, we can all give ourselves some self-declared holiday starting from today:)
right now, there aren't many of us in de lab. Haa.

i'm experiencing mixed feelings now.
12weeks of attachment, 12weeks of fypj.
all ended in jus a brink of eyes.
i got to know more friends and nice lecturers.
friends and lecturers dat will not follow you throughout my life but i'll remember them forever.
i'm grateful to everyone, everything dat had made my fypj a memorable one.
graduation will be jus around de corner, and all of us will be heading to our own path.
de thought of it jus makes me feel sad:(

ohya. finally i got an iTouch!
it's pretty fun and i'm still not sick of playing it yet.
i'm gonna jailbreak it soon, veri soon.
and after jailbreak, i think i'll be veri hooked to it.

anyway, i'm having a veri hard time recently.
somehow i feel dat i'm a failure in handling interpersonal skills.
i always thought dat i have a way to deal wif them.
eventually, i realized reality dun happen as and when you want them to occur.

soo wordy right?
alrighty, THE END!!!

eenie meeie

2010-07-28T15:07:00.003+08:00

yea peeps!
it's me...

finally i returned to my fyp lab after being stationed at suntec for some internet security conference thingy.
needless to say, de feeling is good to back in school eh:)
alright, i think i needa get back to my report. Haa!

ohya. i'll be visiting Singapore Zoological Gardens once again!
it'll be wif sis and her uni friends.
i guess it'll be another memorable trip.
de last time i went was during my birthday wif sweetie and ED.

i dun noe wat's on my mind.
i dun noe wat do i want from you.
my heart goes to you, my eyes are on you, my ears hear you.
i tried to close my heart my eyes and my ears, from you.
jus tell me, wat should i do?
it feels real terrible, in me.
it had never felt soo true before.

new toy

2010-07-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

i'm aiming for dis next!!!

busy

2010-07-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

hillo peeps!

it had been a pretty busy week for me and it's gonna get busier for de few days ahead:)

firstly, weekly NAFA's running session had been cancelled due to de rain dis afternoon.

dis means i had not burnt out de fats i had consumed for de past 1week.

i'll needa run extra rounds next week i guess:(

however, i was told dat i'm helping in an internet security conference at Suntec on de 26th and 27th.

which means i might not be able to attend next week's NAFA's running session!

seriously, i needa do something to my fats man!

secondly, last Saturday was my mum's birthday but it had to be postponed to dis week as my sis was having her major examination.

we'll be having some steamboat buffet dat my bro had highly introduced.

i jus hope dat i won't get diarrohea after de meal. FingersCrossed!

thirdly, i'll be attending Kaplan's Psychology course preview on Thursday.

after attending SMa's Psychology course preview, i'm kinda sure dat dis's de course.

right now, i have to continue to keep a lookout for de right school:)

alright, dat's how busy i am!

i like busy times as it'll keep my mind occupied.

saddening

2010-07-13T10:52:00.006+08:00

hye peeps, it's me again.
i bet dis's gonna be a pretty emotional post.

i hate it when people says i'm a pampered princess.
i hate it when people says i'm a spoilt brat.
i hate it when people says i'm not being complacent girl.
i hate it when people takes advantage of me.

friends would often say they're envy of me.
i'm leading de life they always wanted.
holding on to branded goods, dining good food, not worrying about money issue.
in de eyes of everybody, i'm leading an extravagance lifestyle.
but did it cross anybody's mind, is dis de life i want?
all i want is everyone to stay happi, stay healthy.
but often, de simplest wish is always de toughest to fulfill.

i wasn't born wif silverspoon, my family was chased out when i merely two.
time was difficult for us, it was indeed a real challenge.
but who, who borrowed us a pair of helping hands at dat point of time?
wat we had achieved today is after years and years of hardwork.
or perhaps, it all belongs to dad and mum's effort.
right now, they are jus trying to compensate us for those tough days.

soo people out there to jus gotta understand dat being a princess doesn't mean de princess herself wants to be a princess.
if time can turn back, i would rather go back to those times where de house is small and we were close to each other.
seriously, i haven't been real happi lately:(

PS: somehow, you jus make me smile.

busy

2010-07-08T22:02:00.003+08:00

yes peeps, i'm back!

guess wat, FYPJ Mid-Term Presentation was kinda a success to me:)
reason being, both independent markers were quite lenient towards my team or perhaps they weren't focusing on our presentation.
one was rushing for time while de other was not paying attention.
i was trembling throughout de whole presentation i guess.
i'm sure, dis's definitely de first time i felt soo nervous since all de presentation i had went through from year1.
everyone is soo tensed up luh!

after de tension day we had yst, we headed to amkhub dis afternoon for some relaxation.
we caught DespicableMe! and PepperLunch for lunch.
8* for de show and thumbs up for PepperLunch. Haa.
however, when it's time to get back to our fishtank, we have to be back:(

alright, enough about FYPJ!
let's talk about my life lately?
dad brought us to Jumbo@Changi on sunday for lunch.
basically i can't find a word to describe de food.
fabulous? yea, their food indeed holds up to their name.
after lunch, we were exploring Changi.
not forgetting, i requested to catch a glimpse of our famous haunted Changi Hospital.
de place looks real eerie and creepy man.

i meet up wif Q after school on Monday.
we had manhattan fish market.
he returned from BK only in de afternoon and he'll be flying to KL de following day.
soon, he'll be serving his NS and we'll have lesser catch up session:(

ending my post today will be about my fat pig:D
i haven't been playing wif her for quite a few days already.
i had been held up wif FYP, FYP and FYP.
FYP is tedious...

PS: Mr.S, if only i can see you everyday but i'll jus get speechless whenever i see you.

for de week

2010-07-02T13:23:00.003+08:00

hye peeps.
it's Friday today.
and i understand dat i haven't been updating my blog either.

anyway, i've been through many heavy weeks.
i believed there'll be more coming up ahead.
most importantly, it's Mid-Term Presentation next week.
FYI, we haven't realli achieve much since we started on de project.
somehow i need someone to motivate me and give me more confidence.
no matter wat, i'm still glad dat my supervisor is pretty understanding and patient wif us as compared to other fyp-mates.
getting more and more demoralized, i'm still preparing for next week's presentation.
it's gonna be 30% of our total fyp weightage.
quite significant actually...

adding on to my heavy weeks, my emotions were going through some kind of rollar coaster ride.
AGMs wif my fyp-mates made me ponder pretty much lately.
i've been thinking through a lot a lot.
and i realized, i realli wish to loved again.
i dun put it as i prefer to be single but instead, i'm still waiting for de right one to appear.
jus last week, i saw it in my own eyes how depressed a guy can be when his girlf decided to call off de relationship.
while i always only see de opposite.
i believe, guys of all types still exists:)

btw, my stomach is not feeling right now.
it must be something i had ate during breakfast i guess.

ohya. i had joined de weekly training for NAFA wif 2 other girls.
my body was aching like free for de last two days.
i was walking like a crippled.
my legs felt a lot better today, but not my stomach:(

PS: why i'll jus smile, becoz of you?

my nyp story

2010-06-21T15:34:00.008+08:00

i wrote de essay below during my attachment and i decided to post dis up in my blog:)

“Live up to your dream!” This is definitely not Nanyang Polytechnic’s motto or slogan. Instead, it was often heard in the campus.

As a 16 years old teenager, I followed the typical route, using my mere score of 20 points from the GCE O’Levels to enter a local polytechnic. Nanyang Polytechnic (NYP) became my first in place as it was the nearest polytechnic to my living place. However, I did not have any followers. None of good friends had chosen NYP. Eventually, I entered NYP with a mind full of doubtfulness and question marks. It was only when I was about to receive my diploma from the Principal made me realized it was me whom I was in doubt all along.

As my elder sister was a graduate of NYP, I did not face much difficulty in familiarizing the campus. Just like other freshmen, I tried to keep my chatty mouth shut as long as possible during the Freshman Orientation. I did not want to get involved in those games like ice-breakers although I know that that is the only way I can get to know my classmates a little more. As usual, some left while some stay. One thing that was real clear to us was that we are definitely going to stay together as a class for the next three years, no matter which background we had came from.

The bonding in my class did not happen overnight. Basically 0805 was broken up into smaller groups or the common term they called cliques. At that time, this was a very common sight among classes. Hence, 0805 was also not the odd one out. Besides attending lectures, tutorial classes and practical classes together, we were with our own group of friends. At least we sure that we were more comfortable for things to work out in this way. This was how my first year in NYP was like. It was all about doing things on your own, not as a class. In another words, we were not a bit united.

Moving on to the second year, my class started to grew close with each other. Since the departure of my best friend, I was forced to join another clique. However, as each day goes by, different groups of cliques not longer exists in the class of 0805. We would hang out in a group of 15, practically the whole class. Be it for lunch or buying reference books from the printing shop, it is all about these 15 people. We would keep a lookout for each other, we would wait for each other, we would help each other and we would tease each other. Most importantly, we would discuss things together. What I enjoyed being in my class will be holding discussions for birthday celebrations together, as a class. I can say, this was my most memorable year. For the first time, school felt like a second home to me. I looked forward to school everyday.

Third Year, the last year in NYP. Due to the curriculum, we were once again separated based on the specialized track we had chosen. Some had gone for Industrial Placement Program (IPP), some went for Final Year Project (FYP) while some went for their studying semester. It was not easy to maintain the close relation we used to have. Discussions for birthday celebrations can no longer be held easily. It was hard to reach a time everyone could accommodate. We were all prepared for this day but there was still a sense of lost when the day arrives. Or perhaps girls tend to be a little more emotional, I remember I will never fail to express my misses for my polymates when I was out there doing my attachment. The moments we used to share were the ones that linger in my mind. What that returns will be lines and lines of encouragements and it was all that I needed to keep me going. It was then I realized the love I had for my polymates was indeed so strong.

If someone were to ask me what is the most memorable thing that happened during my poly years, it would be my 19th birthday. It was the first time my class celebrated my birthday for me, of course in an unexpected way. As my birthday fell during the exam period, I always assume that no one will pay much attention to it. Right after the last paper, we had a barbeque session for our class gathering at one of polymates’ house, Ben’s house. Although we ended up having pizza, there was still nothing unusual about their behavior. Just when I was about to leave for home, lights went off and there, came my polymate holding on to a cake. I can never forget that sight. It was a chocolate cake topped with many strawberries. The cake was made with everyone’s effort. I was moved, too moved for tears. I thought everyone had forgotten about my birthday and I was feeling down. Surprisingly, they even made me a teddy bear from the ‘Build-a-Bear Workshop’.

Trust me, it can never be more fulfilling than graduating with the people you love and treasure. For me, it was my polymates that brought colours to my poly life. I was able to understand why students would prefer a polytechnic path as compared to a junior collage path. It was the kind of experience that you can never forget. I knew great friends, great lecturers and great mentors. I believed, they are the ones that shaped today’s Jessica. Not forgetting the tough days too, we went through thick and thin together as a class like burning midnight oil for project submission and final presentation. No doubt we do experience disagreements but we kiss and make up easily. There will be no hard feelings anymore. That makes my class more lovable than ever. For a class like this, I guess it can be really hard to forget.

sian

2010-06-11T13:13:00.004+08:00

hye peeps!
how are everybody? :)

anyway it's friday le, how fast huh?
days are travelling faster den i thought.
it's week2 of my fypj and there are still 10weeks to go.
there'll be a fypj asembly later at 4.
we can all expect wat de fypj manager is gonna say.
i jus hope dat my team will not be chosen for de presentation.

it was bro's last day wif DLS yst.
he'll be treating us for tung lok seafood lunch buffet 2moro at Orchard Central.
HAHA!
who doesn't enjoy good food?
tung lok food are nice and they definitely hold up to their name.

soo right now, my lab is left me all alone.
jonathan and ahkhim not in school while de rest all out for lunch.
i'm soo happi dat my pc is finally reverting back to xp!
it was linux all these while actually and i had to borrow other fyp-mate's pc.
i knew i was quite an irritant.

alright these are my update for de week.
stay tune:)

sick

2010-06-06T09:50:00.002+08:00

hillo peeps!
i'm pretty bored hence i'm updating my blog once again. LOL!

i did not sleep well last night.
i didn't feel well.
i guess i'm gonna be sick veri soon. Haa.

some fyp friends will be leaving for china 2moro.
they are de fun ones and obviously de noisy ones too.
2moro's lab will be quite quiet i think.
anyway they'll be back in 1month's to 6weeks' time luh.

and yea, i mentioned it was my dad's birthday yst.
we haven't even got his present luh. hees!
i promise i'll get his present asap alright!

ohya my cousin will be holding his wedding during next year Feb.
good thing is, we'll be all travelling to Philippines.
bad thing is, why is it Philippines?!
Philippines is a nightmare to me!
de first airplane i had travelled was to Philippines.
in my memory, i cried like a real crybaby.
dad will never fail to rank dis incident up whenever we're going overseas.

finally it's raining.
however my mood is kinda gloomy too:(
seriously, i dun feel good today man.

friday

2010-06-04T20:43:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.
finally it's Friday.

wat a tedious and happening week i had.
i had a realli tough week.
i need to cool down for de next 2 days.

anyway it's my dad's birthday 2moro:)

fun

2010-06-03T16:33:00.003+08:00

hye peeps!
it's me again:)

i'm back to school doing my fyp.
it's been great fun actually.
i enjoy being wif my fyp-mates.
i guess my lab is de most happening lab ever. Haa.
though de 'working time' is practically de same as ipp, it's de people dat matters.
fyp-mates had been matchmaking me all these while. LOL!
best thing is, i'm kinda voiceless now already!

anyway, i'm dealing wif some linux testing.
it's not something i'm have totally no idea about it but it's definitely i'm not familiar to.
there's no coding or programming but it's a new skills i needa catch up wif.
i hope there'll be some pros out there to help me.
i will wana depend on myself but i will wana learn a new skills too.
contradicting huh? dat's me!

ohya. there's dis guy opposite my lab dat has realli long sideburns.
you noe i can't resist guys wif sideburns! omg!
soo far i only noe his name is arian:(

alright, i needa head back to my noisy lab soon.

departure

2010-05-27T11:49:00.003+08:00

hye peeps.
i'm back...

today is my last day of attachment.
it feels like whenever waiting to return to singapore whenever i go overseas.
i can't believe 3months jus past like dis.
there'll be no nice farewell soo i guess i'll be leaving quietly.

anyway, i'm feeling super lousy today.
my dad shouted at me yst for rushing my bro home.
it wasn't even my fault luh.
i was jus conveying my mum's message to ask my bro wat time will he back home.
and my bro, over de other end of de phone was giving me attitude as well.
oh well, i realli wana noe wat have i done wrong man.

2 more days

2010-05-25T16:11:00.004+08:00

hillo everybody!
how's everyone?

i'm happi becoz my attachment is ending is 2 days' time.
i'm down becoz i'm starting to miss dis place.

dis place never fails to piss me off soo why am i missing a single bit of thing here.
i would like to noe it myself too.
i wanted soo much to return to school even if i noe i'm gonna get stressed up by coding.
but somehow i wanted dis 2 days to pass slower, jus a little slower will do.
i guess it's becoz i dun get as stressed up as i do in school dat makes my heart sway.
i have to think dis way in order to get me going.
when i realli missed a place or someone, i will get veri veri veri emotional, trust me.
jus like when i left tcc, i was real emotional for quite some time.
i hope dat de history won't repeat itself.

not talking about attachment, let's talk about my meetup wif gl ba.
yes i met up wif my polymate, gl.
you guys won't be unfamiliar wif gl and my BFF, hn.
they are those people soo important to you dat you will never forget them.
we had a great catchup session, although we're gonna see each other during FYP too.
i can't imagine we walked all de way from 313 to fareast.
as usual, i was de spendthrift one while gl was de opposite.

ohya! i wore veri formal today.
though i'm supposed to wear formal everyday except Fridays.
i wore a loong sleeve shirt plus long pants plus heels.
jus like how i would dress for de final presentation.
and de weather is torturous luh.
i was perspiring all de way on de way to work.
Angelia and SH have real good bearing power. Haa.

LO will be visiting me and SH 2moro!
his appearance won't make much diff now actually.
but i still respect him coz SH has been saying dat he's nice.
for thursday, i'll be having dinner wif my mum and bro.
thanks to the 'Eat wif ur Family Day', i'll be released by an hour earlier.
and i'm realli eating wif my family. LOL!
how cute dis place can be huh?

oh well, i think i'm updating jus for de sake of updating.
why is it like dat huh?!
aiya but who cares man.
dis's my blog and i'll update it as and when i like.
alright i should get going le.
i'll be back soon!

2010-05-21T15:55:00.002+08:00

hye peeps!
miss me? definitely not coz i jus updating yst! LOL!

i'm soo happi today!
coz my supervisor commented dat my IPP report is well written!
since de past 10weeks, dis's de first time i heard such a nice thing from them.
i think my report is soo touching and i'm soo moved. AHAHA!
though SH insisted dat my report sounds like sucking up to them.
but who cares man!
i had spent soo much effort in dis report lor.

LO will be visting me next week for de last time in NCS.
he'll be coming at 9 which means i cannot be late!
i'm practically reaching at 9 recently.
yes ar! next week will be de last week of my attachment!
i seriously have no idea how did i manage to survive through de 3months.

5 more days

2010-05-20T14:11:00.003+08:00

yes, it's me again!
it's my blog of coz it'll be only me, me and me luh.

there'll be early dismissal next thursday!
it's becoz NCS they have dis "Eat wif ur Family Day".
we'll get to leave at 5. Haa.

activities for de next 2weeks will be real packed i guess.
i'll be meeting gl dis sat.
it's been quite some time since de last time i had met her.
though she has a show to catch at 6:45, we should have sufficient time for some catchup.
i missed dis companion who never fails to accompany me through my difficult times during poly days.
as for next long weekend, i'll be having a nice haircut wif my mum.
i'm definitely not gonna bring dis messy hair of mine to school.
it will take up a day or watsoever soo all shopping needs to be settled by dis week.

honestly speaking, i'm not prepared for fypj.
i noe it won't be easy, there'll be deadlines to meet.
no one likes to be pressurize by deadlines.
it represents ur failure or success:(

any idea wat am i doing now?
i'm daydreaming!
yes, DAYDREAMING!
it's not dat i have nothing to do but i seriously dun feel like doing anything for de next 2weeks.
why i'm feeling dat my life is kinda messed up?
am i using de right word, "messed up"?
i dun noe wat to do, where to go, who to find.
my priorities are not giving me any discipline.
i practically slept at work yst!
dis isn't my life or is dis actually my life?
not following a daily routine but leading a carefree and freedom day.
I DUN NOE, I REALLI DUN NOE!!!
maybe i'll have an answer soon...

PS: 5 more days!

graduation

2010-05-19T10:27:00.004+08:00

it was my bro's graduation ceremony yst!
de whole family practically woke up as de usual time.
it doesn't feels like i'm not going for work luh.
but since it's bro's big day den i shall forgive him. Haa!

we had breakfast at koufu and it makes me feel like i'm in school!
holding on to de 4 precious tickets, we thought we'll be able to capture de whole ceremony.
however, we were rejected to enter de hall as they claim de hall was already overcrowded.
we were den directed to another authorium to watch de ceremony through a projector.
de feeling is seriously damm lousy.
you wouldn't noe how disappointed we were.
all thanks to those VIPs@!@!

de ceremony ended at 12plus and dad dropped us off at vivo.
definitely we didn't watch shrek luh.
but we bought many dvds and had pepper lunch for dinner!
i guess dat's de happiest thing dat had happened yst.

a bit of random stuffs again.
1. i had been realli addicted to de chipmunks songs lately.
real addicted as i had been only playing their songs in my mp3.
2. counting down to another 6 more working days!
and LO will be visiting me next wed at 9am.
3. my fat pig is getting naughtier each day.
but de problem is dat she kinda overweight i think.
or is she supposed to fat?

shrek

2010-05-17T14:47:00.003+08:00

walo peeps!
today's monday but i'm having any monday blues.
coz there's no work 2moro!

it's my bro's graduation luh.
i was damm disappointed when i thought i noe i won't be able to attend.
interns are not entitled wif any leaves or offdays.
all thanks to labour day huh!
and mum says we'll watch shrek4 after bro's graduation but shrek's only out on thursday.
wat a sotong mum i has.
anyway i'm glad dat at least my mum still watches cartoons wif me. Haa.

Angelia and SH should be doing their IPP report right now.
guess wat i had been doing since morning?
dun worri, i'm not slacking alright!
i was looking for suitable bachelor courses for my university study.
business courses are definitely more down-to-earth and readily available courses.
however counting figures is not my forte.
unlike business courses, Food Technology is only available in part-time.
i turned to Psychology instead.
i'm sure dat studying human minds will be much better den reading figures though human minds will be much more complicated.
moreover by den, i would have made up my mind whether to join de teaching force or not.

3/4 of de working hours has passed.
it's 3plus now and i'm leaving office in 3hrs' time.
i can't wait to reach home to play wif my beloved fat pig!

PS: i have dis huge pimple on my face!

long long post

2010-05-13T17:16:00.005+08:00

yes, i'm back again!
i think i'll be updating my blog everyday:)

ever since i finished wif de interface thingy, nothing interest me anymore.
i'm realli sick and tired of those javascripts and vbscripts.
right now, i'm planning to slack all de way till attachment ends.
since i had been working hard for de past 10weeks, it's time i'll have some breathing space for myself.
soo for de next 2weeks, i'm gonna request to do up my report.
although i think my report is kinda completed. LOL!
but who cares man!
reading a book is definitely much better den reading those scripts luh.

i'm starting to read up Rich Dad, Poor Dad.
it's quite an inspirational book.
go read it! strongly recommended!
i'm still not finished wif Kasandra Kong's This Is My Story and 红楼梦.
i have soo many books to complete. Haa!

today is thursday, which marks de last 9days i am wif NCS.
reason for it being, 28th is a public holiday and next tuesday is my bro's graduation.
due to labour day fell on a sat, i am entitled an Off-In-Lieu.
and i'm using it to claim my bro's graduation day.

bro's graduating from SP le, i'm next.
honestly speaking, i have no idea wat course should i take for my further studies.
psychology? arts & social science? pathology?
i'm only interested in science courses which are veri academical.
i noe myself dat i'm a lazy bum.
academical subjects will only pressurize me more.
i might sound a little uncomplacent here coz i need not have to worri about de fees and stuffs.
i'm fortunate to be born in a family where money for education is never an issue.
i guess my dad has put aside a pile of money since many grandmother years ago jus for our today's education.
he noes veri well dat we can't survive wif jus a mere diploma where de whole market is already flooded wif it.

anyway, i'm knocking off from work soon, like in 30mins time.
i hope to meet my girls soon but somehow everyone's busy wif their stuffs.
sweet is busy wif moving house and attachment.
sy is busy wif assignments and projects.
gl is busy wif attachment.
dat means, there are no events for me dis weekend.
i shall be a good girl and stay home dis weekend!

wat a long post for today huh:)
alright, off i go now... cya!

PS: you're my eye-candy!

not a single soul

2010-05-10T16:20:00.004+08:00

hye people, i'm back!
today's working environment is soo diff from de other days.
it's becoz everyone had gone out to attend NCS's Conference at suntec.
which means i'm left all alone at de office luh.
there's only me and some bangala workers.
wat a good arrangement huh?!
de office is realli quiet now. Haa.
it's kinda good coz no one bothers me now.
though Angelia is in de department right beside mine, soo near yet soo far!

i'm listening to de chipmunks songs now.
i'm a hardcore fan of de chipmunks alright!
soo rock n roll sia.
but it definitely perks me up man.

ohya! i had been out for de last weekend.
we had a great lunch on sat for Monday's Day:)
bought some treats for my fat pig as well.
she's jus oh soo lovable!

if i'm not mistaken there's godzilla tonight.
i hope i can reach home by 6:45pm.
i had watched it for quite a few times but some shows jus dun turn me off.

PS: you're jus another jerk

2010-05-06T10:08:00.003+08:00

i'm not feeling good today.
whole day's mood jus got spoilt like dis.

have you ever been through something like ur effort is not being appreciated?
if there is a kind of eyes dat can read through people's mind, i would like to have one.
de first person i will wana read through will be my family.
i'm not feeling angry, i'm jus disappointed once again.
no one listens, no one bothers, no one cares.
it isn't a formality, it's a discussion.
how can a discussion continue when there's only one person talking?
i hate it when people jus tell me a yes/no answer without giving me de reason.
haven't you all realize dat i might get sick and tired of all these one day?
and i'm honestly getting exhausted from all these nonsense from you all already.
i'm being accommodating, not a push-over alright.
get dis fact right first before telling me off.

i'm totally not in de mood of working right now.
every single thing jus pissed me off.
i jus hate it when people take ur existence for granted.
why shouldn't i receive de amount of respect i should have?
i'm not born to become a princess in dis family but neither am i a maid.

PS: why does it always have to be me?

busy

2010-05-05T14:32:00.002+08:00

hye peeps! i'm back to my space again.
i had been real busy wif work lately.
you can see dat coz i've been updating my space.
and yes, finally things are calming down now after.
it'll be jus some editing work, bits and pieces.
javascript kills!

how's life? bad worse worst still.
i wasn't able to attend my polymates birthday celebrations all these while.
i feel seriously bad about it, utterly bad.
i missed out de fun man.
when will i be back to those normal days again?

dis 3months aren't normal days...
i'm not spending time wif my fat pig.
i'm not spending time wif myself.
i'm not spending time wif my friends.
i'm not spending time wif my books.
i'm not spending time wif my family.

no worries, i'll be back in school in less den 1month's time.
i can't wait to go back, soo does my attachment-mates.
school is still de best place of all.

alright, i guess it's time for me to head back to work again.
i'll be back here again, veri soon!

PS: damn it!

tuesday

2010-04-27T14:21:00.005+08:00

yes, it's tuesday today.
monday blues simply spreads throughout de week.

jus now while i was listening to yes93.3's can-theatre, i cried.
though there aren't any images, de story is still as touching.
i was moved to tears by chong qing's character in de script, yang jing yu.
it jus feels soo real man.

another 20 more working days and i'm off wif my attachment days.
mixed feelings...
but still, i'm thankful.

i'm freaking pissed off.
wat do i mean to you? a tool or watsoever?
tsk. i seriously dun need a friend like you.
i can withstand betrayal, liars.
but never a friend who simply ignores my presence.
i can't stop asking myself, why do i wana noe you in de first place?

PS: how vulnerable a friendship can be huh

sat

2010-04-24T19:42:00.002+08:00

it's sat today!
yea coz there's no work ma.
and most importantly, i can talk as much as i want to.

bathed my fat pig.
she's getting violent, real violent now.
her legs huh, power de ma~
i can barely carry her wif a single hand now already.
she even overturned her food day few days ago.
i was like, wth.

soo i was fb-ing de whole day.
i will only login to fb during de weekends now.
my fishes and crops are dying soon.

i'm drinking dat super bitter chinese medicine.
it's realli bitter but i noe it's good for my body.
only if i dun have intestinal problems.
my gastritis friend always come visiting me once in a while.
de worst thing is, strictly no sweets.

as wat i mentioned in my previous post, my phone is not in use.
hopefully i can get my new phone 2moro! :)
it feels weird to be 'phone-less' in these days.

PS: i won't give a damm to you anymore.

hp

2010-04-23T09:11:00.002+08:00

hye peeps! today's Friday! :)
no work 2moro!

bad news:
my phone died on me yst afternoon.
i'm gonna live for de next few days without a handphone.
good news:
i'm getting a new phone veri veri soon.
diamond2? mini?

alright, i needa head back to work already!

sian

2010-04-22T10:50:00.004+08:00

yes peeps! i'm back to my space again.
it's Thursday today! :)
which means it's Friday 2moro! :)

anyway, dad says we're gonna have steamboat dis sunday.
i love steamboat!
de last time we had steamboat was my birthday i remember.

i had been listening to 933FM lately.
they have dis drama in celebration of their anniversary.
it's ep4 today already.
quite an interesting story i think.
tune in at 10:30am daily!

as for work, i'm continuing wif stress testing.
it's kinda fun to play wif de system. Haa.

i'm soo looking forward to next Friday!
coz i'll be out in town wif SH and Angelia.
everywhere will be laughters wif them.
they are definitely great shoppers man.
we're sure gonna treat ourselves a nice meal.
there are soo many things we wana buy! :(

school started

2010-04-20T10:24:00.002+08:00

hye peeps! i'm back.
if i'm not mistaken, poly sem started yst.
i wana be like one of those students out there rushing for class.
but i can only look at them wif an envy face.
enough of my grouches!

it's now 10plus and i had not yet taken my breakfast.
i guess my gastritis will be visiting me soon again. Haa.

short post. dat's it. cya!

yea it's me

2010-04-15T17:07:00.007+08:00

hey peeps! it's me again!
i had been blogging at dis hour these few days. :)
though i think i have nothing much or interesting to blog about.

it's 5pm now and it's raining heavily outside.
there's THUNDER somemore! :(
rainy days = moody days...

during lunch break today we were chatting happily about our secondary school days.
we all agreed dat those days were de best days.
we will do silly and stupid things without knowing it reflected retarded now.
whole class standing outside de classroom becoz we didn't complete homework.
piggybacking each other around de school.
girls acting shy while guys acting cool~
we'll never fail to shorten de lifespan of our teachers i guess. HAHA!
they are all great memories to us.
no matter wat, life's gonna move on.
it's another stage of life, part and parcel of life.
memories are de ones dat will always stay wif us.

i wonder how is WQ coping wif his presentation.
he's having an important demo now and i mustn't disturb him at dis moment.
i've been helping him wif all i can and it's up to him to perform now.
i hope to hear some good news...

btw, it's Friday 2moro!
but i have no plans for dis weekend luh.
it's good to have no plans when you're broke.
which is why i'm kinda glad dat i have no plans. LOL!

ohya. i'm changing my hp soon, veri soon.
it has been getting unusual lately.
i have a few phones in mind.
definitely not iPhone anymore.
i wanted HTC Touch Pro2 but it's no longer available.
HTC Diamond2 is my next choice.
i'm still undecisive.

reflection

2010-04-14T17:33:00.002+08:00

i saw de reflection of me.
somehow, it jus feel soo terrible luh.
nothing can describe my feeling now.
peeps out there who are truely concerned, dun try ask a single thing.
seriously, i dun believe in retribution.
but i'm starting to see it in myself.

today is wednesday.
good thing is, de sky is not raining today.
my mood simply gets swayed easily by de weather i think.
soo it's gonna be a 'long' journey home later again.
everyday is de same actually. HAHA!

i finally got rid of SQL!
it's been 2weeks since i was stuck wif some SQL optimization.
i'm moving on to stress testing now. :)
i'm stressed up le! LOL!
another 6 more weeks to go...

btw, sweet's back!
i missed her soo much luh.
i'm glad dat she's back safely.
i wana hear her guangzhou stories badly!

PS: you're not DE one

sian

2010-04-13T10:40:00.003+08:00

i realized no one had asked me wat i realli want. LOL!
and dat no one had said if he/she can, he/she will give it to me.
soo wat do i want exactly? like idk leh.
world peace? too far-fetched...
alright, den i will want my family and friends to be healthy ba.

today is 13April, which means i'm still left wif less den 2months of internship.
and veri soon, i'll be in de 'fish tank' completing my FYPJ.
right now, i feel totally restless.
i dun have de right mood to work now!
ohya. sweet's returning from guangzhou 2moro! :)

PS: i'm still waiting...

monday blues

2010-04-12T11:19:00.010+08:00

birthday card from SH!

had been out wif my family during de weekends.
and for yst, we went to suntec for some education exhibition.
bro's still undecisive which course which school he wana go.
i'm glad dat i have a year to think about my path.
honestly speaking i'm losing interest in studying.
but dad's speaking true, a degree is realli important in de society now.
to safeguard my future, i guess i have to jus hang on for another few more years ba.
we had dinner outside before heading home.
i had my favourite cereal prawns! :)

as for sat, i woke up in de dawn and head to de hospital wif mum.
it's realli early and raining hence we took a cab.
i had been sleepy all de way. :(
we reached home around noon time and headed out again to look for bro's working shoe.
i totally KO in de night.

why do i always feel soo much comfort only after speaking up to you?
why do you came to my mind only when i feel down?
why dun you ask a single thing when i speak to you?
why did you move a step closer to me only now?
why? why? why? i... i... i...

i have many great buddies in my life.
they always listen to me.
they will find ways to cheer me up.
i throw tantrums on them, but yet non left me.
perhaps, guys have better tolerance level.
i'm not being a spoilt girl.
trust me, i truely appreciate their presence.

PS: dun bother about me, it's jus another monday blues...

cried

2010-04-09T17:18:00.002+08:00

i felt dat i couldn't take de stress anymore.
i hate to but tears came uncontrollably.
i hate to let people see de weak side of me.
but, it was sweet who told me tears and complaints aren't sign of weakness.
i can't recall when was de last time i teared.
perhaps, i had grew strong all these while.
i had never felt as useless like now.

i was glad dat WeiQiang was there for me.
he listened.
i was glad dat Angelia was there for me.
she listened and offered help.

no matter wat, dis's work.
i gotta jus accept it.
for it being i'm jus an intern.
i guess i will jus have to keep trying.

PS: thanks god, it's Friday

work

2010-04-07T20:32:00.004+08:00

i didn't noe why am i feeling soo tired nowadays.
it's only 8plus now and i'm feeling soo restless.
perhaps workload has increased gradually.
or perhaps i'm falling ill again.
fortunately, i'm still dealing wif sql stuffs.
i was spared from java coding eventually.

sweet has left for guangzhou.
she sent me a text when she boarded de plane.
jus like i texted her when i boarded de plane to korea.
i'm starting to miss her already:(

jus some updates about my fat pig.
thanks god, her palms are fine now.
i was realli worried for de past few days.
after a day of work, seeing her jumping around simply makes my day fulfilling enough.

why did you come into my life?
if it's god arrangement for me to meet you, den i would like to tell god.
dear god, i will never want to see him again.
de wound was never once healed and it's a scar dat can never be washed away.
de pain, still lingers around my heart.
i put myself to hate, but i can't.
i put myself to forget, but i can't.
i put myself to forgive, but i can't.
i realli detest myself for not able to do anything to make myself feel better besides tearing.
i can't remember how much tears had filled up my days.

deleted

2010-04-04T10:44:00.002+08:00

hey peeps! yst's post deleted.
he finally replied me.
like finally.
i guess things will be working fine for us.

i was out wif sweet yst!
it's been some time since i last met her since de zoo trip.
and i swear i realli missed her a lot and i will miss her more for de week ahead.
she's gonna leave for guangzhou on tuesday for 8days.
since i had spent a zillion years without her in IT soo i guess i'll be able to hang on for dat 8days.
ohya we caught clash of de titans yst.
quite an interesting show i feel. HAHA!

it's sunday today, which means work resumes 2moro...
i hate to say dis but working in an IT firm will never be interesting.
gonna be changing to a new seating place.
i hope my friends will be able to find me. LOL!
soo wat am i gonna wear 2moro?! :(

work

2010-04-01T18:43:00.006+08:00

it's already de 4th week.
dat marks my first intern month.
things had more or less stabled down.
i'm no longer feeling unease but instead, insecure.
somehow i jus feel dat my existence is jus oh soo not needed.
though it's true, i would still like to look things at de brighter side.
i have to hang on and i will hang on.
no more whining, no more complaints, no more comparisons.
trust me, i'm definitely not a spoilt brat alright!

speaking about work, i'm realli enjoying de company of SH and Angelia.
SH has a skin as thick as de elephant.
noe why? coz he thinks dat he has a wonderful voice and he's always opening personal concert during our lunch-time.
and dat's de time i will laugh like a mad dog. LOL!
for Angelia, she's de type of friend you can trust her wif all ur heart jus like my BFF!
i will never fail to talk to her wif all my 委屈.

it's a long weekend ahead...
besides having serious stomach cramp yst, i think i'll enjoy de long weekend better.
my program will be having a nice meal wif my family 2moro, followed by seeking some traditional chinese doctor on sat morning and finally meeting up my BFF and ED in de afternoon.
i haven't been enjoying my life since my attachment days.
moreover sweet is heading for guangzhou on tues.
i'll miss her, jus like when i was in korea.
but i noe, she had always wanted to go back to de place where she had many wonderful memories.
dun forget to get my souvenirs alright! :)

some updates about my fat pig.
bought her a new treat but it seems like it doesn't fancy her taste buds.
she's been ignoring it initially but eventually she's munching on it happily now.
my sis will always have a way to deal wif dis stubborn pig.
my fat pig jus enjoys making a lot noise.
but when she's asleep, she's real cute...

ohya. i haven't been feeling dis week.
right now, i'm having a serious sore throat.
stomach cramp managed to ease a little today.
and my head, is spinning like free. :(
i feel i'm like a medicine box now.

i'm not realli happi lately too.
dad's still busy as usual.
it's not dat i'm being wilful here or wat but i realli dun like de way he is now.
i understand de company is undergoing a major project dat's handing over in june.
perhaps, i should be a more understanding daughter instead.
it's his responsibility, his company.

PS: i wana stay close to you.

results

2010-03-27T21:03:00.002+08:00

got back my results on tuesday.
results for dis sem improved quite a lot and overall gpa also increased!

3rd week of work.
except for not able to chitchat wif anybody at work, things are fine.
having SH and Angelia will be de best thing in life during work.

GoodFriday is reaching and dat means there's no work next Friday!
i'm realli looking forward de relocation on Thursday!

work

2010-03-21T19:55:00.002+08:00

i guess work has more or less settled down.
i'm gonna start week3 of my attachment, which means i'm still left wif 9 more weeks.
and tuesday i'll be getting back my year2 sem2's results, de results dat i've been realli looking forward to.
one thing good about attachment will be you dun have to worry about schoolwork or projects.
i'm glad dat i'm no longer alone now. HAHA!
there's dis happi lucky go guy and easy going girl who are from de same cohort as me!

PS: i wana go for movie, shopping and eating buffet!

work

2010-03-13T14:13:00.002+08:00

started attachment for a week.
and yes, it was a terrible week.
i'm not supposed to comment anything about my company in my blog or facebook.
soo i can't say any bad things about my company but neither will i say any good things about my company.
i can only say, it's an experience i will never want to go through again.

when i was on my way home, many thoughts went through my mind.
i realized how much i missed my friends and i cried.
i missed every single person's voice, every single person's action.
i missed every single moments we shared together.

PS: i haven't been smiling since de first day.

new cage

2010-03-07T09:33:00.003+08:00

i was out wif my family yst for some shopping.
bro needa get himself a blazer for de upcoming D&D while me i needa get my closet some clothes for attachment.
i only managed to buy a dress as we needa rush to VivoCity coz i'm getting my fat pig a new house.

my intention was to buy BitBit's cage and perhaps another 1 more fat pig.
we gave up de idea of getting another 1 more fat pig after hearing dat they might fight and bleed.
though it's kinda sad, but de person say it's okie not to get my fat pig another company as long as we spend more time playing wif her and stuffs.

soo wif de new house now, my fat pig won't be stepping on her drity stuffs anymore!
her palms will be much cleaner too.
dat's de reason why i wanted to buy another house for her.
especially i'm starting my attachment soon, i might not have time to entertain all her dirty stuffs dat often.
a divider will ease my load a lot...

attachment

2010-03-05T09:24:00.006+08:00

attachment lor!
i'll be heading to NCS@AMK.
good thing is, company's location will be jus behind our school.
bad thing is, i might have to help out in de technical construction of java!
omg! it's java leh...
i realli have no confidence in java, definitely not de enterprise part too.

it's not like i noe nothing about java but i didn't come in contact wif java for de last sem.
de rest attached to NCS are all J2EE students larh.
only me and another guy from our cohort are .NET students. :(
hopefully they will let us stay in de .NET track.
anyway, we are all separated, yes de 6 of us all going to different companies.

de feeling is realli bad man.
leaving classmates who had been together for de last 2years.
soo yst we had a class gathering at ben's house.
we didn't had bbq but we had PizzaHut instead.
it was me and yuling 19th birthday celebration too.

PS: i had a wonderful 19 birthday!

zoo

2010-03-02T13:30:00.006+08:00

last paper, 2moro.
finally i'm left wif de last paper, DMID!
i can't wait for 2moro's paper to end.
den off i'll be going for attachment for 3months~
i wonder how will my attachment turns out to be.
pretty excited and pretty nervous.

ohya! my BFF brought me to de zoo on sat.
we had a fun time there jus dat de walking and tracking can be quite tiring.
de weather was terribly warm as well.
i've been always wanting to go de zoo ever since my last visit was when i was still a toddler i think?
my only memory of de zoo will be my dad carried me and took a photo wif de giraffe.
though there are many animals in de zoo, each enclosure only have 2 to 3 of de same kind.
it's quite disappointing but de experience was great!
as wat i always say, de right company matters a lot...
as for my birthday present, i received a lion soft toy which i had mistaken for a sunbear coz it's yellow in color and an elmo birthday card from my BFF and ED!

and on my birthday itself, i had steamboat-ing session wif my family at VivoCity.
food variety wasn't a lot but i still went home wif a super bloated stomach.
de ambience was even better as RWS was jus opposite.
when will UniversalStudio open officially huh?!

birthday celebration isn't ending yet.
after 2moro's paper there'll be a BBQ session wif classmates at Ben's house as well as birthday celebration for me!
hopefully my cake isn't pandan cake oh.
i'm soo looking forward!

bathed and cleaned up my fat pig's house.
when i was trimming her nails, i accidentally clipped her flash.
i bet she must be feeling veri pain.
i'm glad dat de cut isn't deep though there was some bleeding.

PS: i'm 19!

2moro

2010-02-25T18:37:00.002+08:00

19th birthday is jus around de corner.
no, it's 2moro to be exact.
dad bought me de casio watch already.
but it's de silver one.
now, i'm getting greedier.
i want a LongChamp bag. HAHA!

though i'm still having 2 more papers next week, i decided to give myself a break for dis 2 days.
trust me, it feels realli yurky to celebrate ur birthday during de exam period.
speaking about exams, i'm pretty worried about yst's OS paper.
i kept telling my classmate dat it's OVER already.
but it's always easier to say den done.

PS: my birthday cake is soo pretty! wish me happi birthday alright!

this little space of mine

2010-02-21T20:51:00.004+08:00

dis little blog of mine is for my 'long-lost' friends to noe my current updates.
but like wat i'll always say, my diary has all de best kept secrets.
since it's secrets, soo it can't be known.
soo stop asking me to reveal dat small little space i have.
it's pretty irritating.

i always believe dat i'll meet dis special person in my life.
and he, will be de person i'll wana hold tight and treasure.
no matter how long i might needa wait, be it years after years, i'll still wait.
when he appears, i'll noe it's him dat i'm waiting.
i dun believe in everlasting love, but i believe in treasuring wat you're holding on now.
before it slips off ur hands without you realizing.
soo girls out there, dun get blinded wif love when a guy says he'll love you forever.
tell him instead, i'll treasure de lovely memories we had together.

oh! it's 21stFeb already...

mug

2010-02-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

i'm studying real hard now.
for de first time, i realli wish to do well in OS.
wed's de paper and i'm off wif OS and DCN stuffs i guess.
i'm not cut for networking stuffs.
it's a good thing dat i only have 3papers dis sem.

i missed hanging out wif my friends, especially my BFF. :(

watch

2010-02-16T20:36:00.004+08:00

i want dis casio vintage watch badly.
i've been out de whole day in town looking for dis casio watch!
will i be able to find dis watch before my birthday?

CNY's making me soo busy...
it's all about eating and doing nothing.
kids like us, enjoys receiving RedPackets of coz.

soo 2moro onwards i'm gonna mug hard!!!

ended

2010-02-08T14:18:00.007+08:00

FinalPresentation had ended! like FINALLY!
i felt like i had jus fought for a veri tough war.
de IndependentMarker was pinpointing me like free but it's all worthwhile de moment i stepped out of de room.
honestly speaking, i had myself prepared for these shit.
my greatest achievement dis sem will be integrating everybody's work together.
it's tedious but somehow, someone will jus have to do it.
there are still some bugs here and there but minor ones are jus fine.
hopefully, i wish for a better GPA dis sem.

soo right now i'm gonna get busy wif CNY stuffs.
deco-ing my house and my pig's house!
since mum said it's okie to buy some stuffs for my fat pig as it's CNY, i bought some toys and tidbits for her.
my fat pig jus can't get away wif her tidbits.
she simply loves her tidbits more den anything else.
people had been saying i'm pampering my fat pig more den myself.
but why not? i'm her mum!
ohya! remembered dat day it was raining damm heavily?
it's de first time i saw my fat pig getting soo frightened ever since de first day she came into our house.
alright, my fat pig is busy playing wif her new toys and drinking water.

speaking about CNY stuffs, i needa spare some time to head down to Chinatown to buy some CNY goodies and decos.
i promised my dad to bring up de CNY atmosphere in our house.
soo yst we went to de supermarket to buy some necessities needed for ReunionDinner.
we're gonna be steamboat+bbq!
i'm soo looking forward larh.
if you noe me you'll noe i'm realli obsessed over steamboat. =)

one of my classmate is in Malaysia now!
if i have my passport wif me i guess i'll be there wif her now too.
i'm gonna lobang her to help me buy cheapcheap guineapig's stuffs. HAHA!

i haven't been sparing much time on my personal entertainment lately huh.
i realli missed watching movie, missed shopping wif no worries, missed eating all my favourite food.
it's frustrating to go shopping and eating wif a mind full of worries.
now dat FinalPresentation had ended, i'm gonna find someone to do all these stuffs wif me!!!

my birthday is reaching and my mum is like hurrying me to order de cake.
though dis year's birthday happens to fall within de exam period, i'll still have to celebrate it right?
it'll be jus a matter of early or belated. =(

anyway, i'll be going for IPP which is attachment soon.
attachment will commence less den a week or be exact, 5days after my last paper and lasting for 3months.
while de rest will go for their FYPJ and study sem first, only a few of us will be going for attachment.
i hope gl will be attached to de same company as me, though de company can be as far as Jurong.
seriously i dun mind de distance as long as someone accompanies me. Hees!

ooo! wat a long post today! okie dat's all!

dun judge me

2010-02-01T18:29:00.007+08:00

sometimes i realli dun understand why people tends to judge someone by wat they hear and not wat they see?
there's nothing to be disgraced about studying but yet working at de same time.
it's not like i stopped school jus to work.
jus becoz you all heard i'm working while studying, you gave me sarcastic remarks, you gave me sarcastic looks.
keep ur comments to urself if you even dun noe wat's de true thing please.

anyway, there isn't any class today.
or basically there isn't much classes dis week.
like for 2moro and Friday, there'll be only a revision lecture.

i was out wif my dad yst afternoon.
he brought me to collect rental followed by some shopping spree.
he bought us some crocodile polo tee! wee~
he noes i had always wanted a lacoste polo tee.
soo mine is orange, mum's one is pink while sis's one is green.
while dad bought some business shirts from robinson.

about Friday, dad says he'll be bringing us for de annual company dinner.
ya it's company dinner again.
i can expect wat will happen...
it's held at Jumbo@EastCoast.
makes me remind of sweet's Jumbo story which happened not long ago.
back to Friday, it's project submission i think.
hopefully i can deliever de product on time and wif all de functions up.

ohya! i had been sleeping too much lately.
jus lying on de bed makes me doze off easily.
perhaps it's due to those 2 days dat i barely slept.

project

2010-01-30T22:56:00.005+08:00

bathed my beloved pig today.
i bet she must be still sleepy while i woke her up.
she was naughty enough to splash water all over me when i was bathing her.
washed up her cage and stuffs.
honestly speaking, it's quite a lot of work.
even though, i still enjoyed every moment spent wif her.
for no other reason, jus becoz i'm her 'mum'.
especially i was pretty busy dis week, i didn't spend much time wif her too.
it did crossed our mind of getting one company for her, but let's jus leave it after CNY ba.
soon after my project's submission, i promise i'll definitely spare more time for her.

speaking about project submission, i actually have nothing much to say.
looking at de deadline reaching nearer each day, my confidence level is degrading.
i hope dat there won't be any more hipcups...
only good thing is, all tests had been completed!

ohya. i realized i haven't been updating my blog recently.
and dat my body's not doing quite well too.
digestion haven't been good lately and dat leads to my poor appetite.
too stressed up lately and dat leads to my insomnia.
looking at me, my mum looked pretty worried
while i'll always say, "don't worry, i'll be fine".
though i noe she won't be less worried jus becoz of wat i'd said.
FYI: my mum's always worrying about dis and dat... i guess worrying flows in all mums...
my bro's busy wif mugging like again.
FYI: he's always studying 24/7...
not speaking about my dad, he's as stressed as me.
he never fail to read his emails everyday when he reaches home.
though a director, he still insists on doing things by himself.
in another words, everybody is busy wif their own stuffs.
i hope they will at least remember dat my birthday's coming soon...

and noe wat? coz everybody is soo busy wif their own stuffs, my mum is bored enough dat she started chatting to my pig.
she will start calling my pig momo now coz my mum always sees me hugging my Elmo.
wat a cute mum i have... HAHA!
LeLe had indeed brought joy to my family.

alright! i needa hurry to my bed before my mum will start screaming to us to bed!

busy

2010-01-22T21:19:00.002+08:00

it's week15 next week.
project submission, week16.
final presentation, week17.
soo dat means i'm left wif merely less den a week.
i'm definitely looking forward to CNY rather den dis.

there'll be another 2 more tests coming up next week.
vb, 25%.
sweng, 10%.

ohya. speaking about CNY.
i have yet to buy my new year clothes.
though it's time for shopping, i feel no excitement.
i can never enjoy my days till project's over.

2010-01-15T10:14:00.005+08:00

i'm not attending OS lecture as usual.
i spent de time cleaning up my fat pig's cage.
removed all de bedding coz i'm training her to bedpan.
it's tough i noe coz she'll still be shitting everywhere in her cage.
soo right now i guess she's trying to adapt a cage without beddings.
i read in de net dat GuineaPig does popcorn dance.
now i fully understand wat's soo called their popcorn dance already.
FYI: she's getting fatter each day! omg!

ohya. i came to realize my 19th birthday falls during de exam period.
yes, not to remind me, i'm 19 soon!
though i'm not having a paper on my birthday, it still feels soo sad to celebrate birthday during exams time.
and i noe veri clearly i'll be bounded at home during de exam period. :(

project

2010-01-13T18:49:00.002+08:00

finally i caught Alvin&Chipmunks2!
it's equally as nice as Part1.
i'm looking forward to Part3 man!

project? ohya project...
confidence level is getting lower each day.
worst thing is, we're only left wif 3weeks...
miracle please!

exam timetable's out.
3papers dis sem.
last paper ends at 3March.
however, i may start my attachment as early as 8March.

open house 2010

2010-01-08T10:18:00.003+08:00

it was NYP's 2010 OpenHouse.
OpenHouse had always been de event of de year.
initially there were like 5,6 of us who signed up for it.
it ended up only me, sy and yenleng turned up. LOL!
only 2 TourGuides were allocated to a group, soo i had to join another guy to guide another group.
funniest thing was, my group was getting larger and larger.
towards de end of de tour, there were like 7 TourGuides in my group. OMG!
i'm de odd one out coz de 6 of them were classmates and i'm de one IT student.
thinking about my pathetic secondary school tour group, i was good enough to stay wif them till de end.
though they dun look like they appreciate my efforts, i realized i'm coming to understand more about NYP.
it was a realli tiring day...
all de walking and shouting...

HomeBasedLearning is grating on my nerves man.
instructions and email were only sent out and given few days past de week.
while de submission will be jus a few days later.
i was like checking my email every single hour larh.
it's not an effective way at all.

2010

2010-01-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

today is de 4thDay of 2010.
alright i seem to be talking rubbish here. LOL!

looking back at 2009, it's was quite a pleasant year for me i guess.
it was a year full of ups and downs.
of coz, i wish 2010 to be much better.
soo on NewYearDay, dad brought us for dinner. =)

though i'm still having a week of HomeBasedLearning before heading back to school officially next week, i'm not realli positive towards it.
de reason for it being, i have no guide to my project.
i'm totally clueless of wat to do next.
not forgotten, today's already week12 and my FinalPresentation is on week17.
dis leaves me only another 5weeks more.
how am i supposed to implement all my UseCases within 5weeks?!
i have yet to discover uses of an ObjectDataSource.
why does time seems to pass soo fast during term breaks?
de thought of it jus makes me feel sick man.
looking at day passes each day, i'm getting more and more demoralized.

LeLe's back to normal again.
dis fat pig had not been eating recently.
i think she's my best companion.
whenever i'm stressed up, i'll go take a look at her.
i'll talk to her but i doubt she'll understand.
even if she dun, it's good enough if she listens.

2009 was one of most experiencing year i had.
i had my longest job stay at tcc@IS.
tcc@IS, it will be a place hard for me to forget.
from a noobie, i had realli hardcore training.
till today, i still never forget any single soul who worked wif me(except for de newcomers).
Pian, LLL, HuiRu, LiYan, Shammer, Nabil, Azfar, Jorgen, Sam, Rum, Patrick.
not forgetting all de brown shirts, Dez, Ivan, Rudy, Taha, Oties,
they were de ones who made my 7months stay such a fulfilling one.
to many people, it's jus a job, no big deal man.
but to me, i decided to walked out of my comfort zone and pursued something i had been always wanting to fulfill in my teenage life.
though eventually i had to leave, it wasn't something ashamed of.
i noe i had been repeating dis, but it's true dat i never regretted join de team.
and there had never been a day i had stopped missing them and my job.

out

2009-12-30T18:33:00.006+08:00

finally, i was out wif my BFF!
i accompanied her for a job interview at RedHill.
we made all de way down jus to hear dat de job requires contract-bound.
hence, we ended up at HendersonRoad.
everything in de surrounding were telling us dat we had lost our way.
somehow, i recognized we were not far away from VivoCity.
took a bus, and we found our way to VivoCity.
soo basically we spent our whole day at VivoCity.
we were happily shopping and looking at stuffs for our own pet.
it felt as though we were parents buying stuffs for our child.
i feel more fortunate den her coz LeLe won't eat newspapers.
i guess she's realli having a hard time wif BitBit.
but no matter wat, we will be good parents to them.
love them, dote them, unconditionally...

holidays

2009-12-23T20:27:00.002+08:00

holidays started for a few days.
but yet i only started revision today.
kickoff will be POA as WrittenTest2 will be conducted on de day when school reopens.

it's de air of Christmas... again.
till now, i dun have a single mood for it.
i guess i'm gonna spend it at home, facing my lappy, talking to my pig. LOL!

it was DongZhi yst night.
and i had tangyuan wif my family.
except dad a little late home.
his face had written it all.
he had became haggard.
and mum, having her leg problem.

alright, i think i needa start working wif my project. =)

good work

2009-12-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

as i mentioned previously, i had my PPP dis afternoon.
it was definitely a relief and console for me when everything flow smoothly.
hipcups do occur but as long as you dun get panicked, everything's gonna be fine.
somehow i treat dis sem project as my baby.
watching it progress bit by bit makes my day.
i guess i'll jus have to keep on wif dis positive attitude.

alright! my holidays started unofficially.
dat's becoz i think i might be skipping 2moro's OS lecture.
jus like how i gave dis morning's SWENG tutorial a miss.
wat's definite will be sis, bro and me are gonna watch avatar 2moro.
it's been quite some time i watched a movie and i bet my siblings were too.
bro had been insisting on watching de 3D version soo we'll be watching de 3D one i think.
i'm soo looking forward to 2moro.
i hope no one will spoil my day. LOL!

oh you guys noe wat?
my eye candy changed his image!
omg! i'm suspecting whether is he realli my eye candy.

LeLe

2009-12-16T20:30:00.006+08:00

PracticalTest today was manageable.
all thanks to dat 1piece of precious CheatSheet.
if it wasn't dat 1piece of CheatSheet, i wouldn't have completed de PracticalTest wif a breeze.
however, classmates aren't as lucky as me.
i was pretty worried about them when i read question1.

there's a ProjectProgressPresentation(PPP) 2moro.
i can say dat till now our website isn't fullproof yet.
but at least, we are managing it well.
wif dis progress, i believe we'll be able to deliver de final product on time and of coz meeting all de requirements.
de time we used to skip lectures was spent well and worthwhile i guess.

ohya remember i mentioned de photo taking session wif LeLe on sat?
some photos are up while some in FB. =)
sweet received a pet bunny from Cindy as her birthday present yst.
it's a male and his name is BitBit.
i wonder wat if both of them falls in love wif each other?
den their baby breed will be RabPig ar? LOL!
soo i'm gonna bring LeLe to play wif BitBit asap!

not a single illusion on you, anymore.

aching

2009-12-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

i'm aching everywhere in my body.
my leg, my butt, my arm. =(
IceSkating was indeed fun wif de right company.
any meal will taste jus right wif de right people.
though every starting step was not an easy task, i only fell twice.
de nice feeling was indescribable. =P

i'm starting to choose my 3rd track.
or to be exact, i had chosen my year3 track.
i decided to follow my heart, Bio.
jus like IceSkating, it wasn't easy to step out.
i might be facing de fate of not a single person i noe will be joining de same track as me.
still, i'll follow my own wishes.

there was some photo taking session wif LeLe yst night.
we placed her at de sofa for de first time.
and for de first time, i placed her on my arms.
we trimmed her fur and nails.
somehow i felt like a mum to her. LOL!
nothing's happier den seeing her getting better and better each day.
my only regret will be not getting her a companion.
i guess, she'll be much happier den.

it's time to move on girl. stop day-dreaming.

project

2009-12-11T21:06:00.003+08:00

it's de end of Week8 already.
i'm not optimistic about de upcoming weeks ahead until Week17.
trust me, it's never easy to complete any sem project.
and right now, i'm den going through wat i was supposed to go through since Year1Sem1.
my biggest obstacle, patience.
i dun have de patience to go through dat painful process of debugging.
i guess it's time to build up dat patience in me.

alright, i'm bringing my BFF to KallangLeisurePark 2moro for some IceSkating session as her early birthday celebration.
it's been several weekends since de last time i went out and have fun!

classmates had been in de mood of de iPhone fever.
i wana have my iPhone too. =(

met my mum and sis for dinner.
we had MOF@RafflesPlace.
their ice-cream is good. HAHA!
besides dat, their food is jus mamateh only.

i dun wana give up, yet.

home-ness

2009-12-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

i was supposed to meet up my senior dis Fri as i mentioned.
however, our meetup didn't realize.
on top of dat, he's entering de army soon...
i doubt we will be able to meet up for de time being. =(

today, i had steamboat dinner wif my family as requested.
i'm enjoyed dinner...
i guess dis's wat a family should do together.
ask me wat's my favourite activity, it'll be sitting along de table having steamboat wif my family.

and for lunch, there was a sudden lunch appointment by my 2ndUncle.
everybody forgot it's grandpa's birthday dis coming Wed.
how sad huh.
hence we jus had a simple meal wif all my relatives.

LeLe seems pretty adapted to her new home.
we are starting to feed her wif some veggies and carrots.
and for de first time, i bathed her yst. =)
though i think we didn't do a good job but at least she's clean alright.
soo right now, i guess she's dirty again.
i hope i can bathe her every single day but dat's not de right thing to do.
GuineaPigs get flu easily. HAHA!

few days ago, i started my project coding.
my worries are back... errors here and there.
i guess my nightmare is gonna start soon or it had already started.
sometimes i jus can't stop doubting myself.
like... who am i to carry such a heavy responsibility to lead de team when i can't even answer de question by my team members?
am i realli wat they see and noe me?

why can't you understand?

gl's birthday

2009-12-02T18:38:00.013+08:00

early celebration for geoklan's birthday.
we went to visit de airport! yes, it's SingaporeChangiAirport.
somehow i feel soo sua ku today though i'll visit it every year.
somehow we all feel dat de airport environment makes people sleepy.
and de 4 of us were like hopping from one terminal to another.
yes, it was veri convenient wif de skytrain.
bus-ed home... wat a long journey. we, dozed off. HAHA!

i'm gonna meet my secondary school senior dis Friday.
i can't wait to see him. =)
though we were still keeping in contact, it's been quite some time since i last met him.
i guess there'll be a lot for us to catch up wif one another.

ohya. some updates about LeLe.
thank god, she's getting a little better now.
i notice there's at least a decrease in her FoodBowl and WaterBottle every morning.
she must be pretty afraid of me coz she seems to like my sis more.
perhaps my sis is more gentle towards her. LOL!

dad's pretty cranky nowadays.
i understand dat he's indeed facing a lot stress and pressure outside.
and i noe, it's all becoz of dis new project.
he simply went back to how he was in de past.
it's been something i hope i will not have to face it anymore but it's back again.
and right now, i hardly talk to him to prevent clashes...

i wana keep de deepest thoughts of you in my heart.

Winter, LeLe

2009-11-29T20:21:00.005+08:00

dis is Winter(LeLe), a new member to our family. =)
LeLe's 3months plus old already...
we finally got her at SerangoonNorth as SPCA does not have anymore GuineaPigs up for adoption at de moment.
she hasn't realli stabled down yet.
dat's wat we were pretty much worried of.
she has not been eating/drinking as we realize.
or perhaps she will only be eating when we are all asleep ba.
my heart goes to her seeing her like dis.
but i noe it's something she must go through.
PetShop people says she still needs time to adapt to de new environment.
we will needa monitor her condition closely den.
i promise, i'll take good care of her. =P

alright, some updates about today.
dad spared off lunch today.
we had lunch at Sakura@TampinessSafra.
i dun realli like de ambiance as compared to Balestier's branch.
dishes and seating are arranged in a much more organized manner.
i feel like eating in a large canteen at TampinessSafra's branch.
not a sense of privacy at all. =(
i will never want to visit TampinessSafra's branch anymore.

tell me wat to do.

guinea pigs

2009-11-27T16:31:00.004+08:00

it's been almost getting a week since i last updated my blog.
and it had been a busy week for me actually.
in preparation of a cozy home for our GuineaPigs!
mum is still not supportive about it but i believe we'll be able to change her perspective about small animals.
oh we are still considering getting how many of them.
since bro is having a share too soo perhaps 2 will be good, for a companion to each other.
soo 2moro, we are going to SPCA and take a look at de GuineaPigs there.
if there isn't suitable ones den we'll head to SerangoonNorth.
people might be asking why is it SPCA?
it's becoz i believe dat de animals there deserve to have a much happier life.
i realli can't wait for 2moro. =P

regarding to de project progress, my team is doing fine i guess.
we are progressing to building de database system.
tried out de template for de 3-Tier Architecture yst.
i can only say it can be quite a challenge to me.
afterall, it's something still veri raw to me.

ohya! not to mention about Fb games.
classmates and me are pretty into dis FB game called MedicalMayhem.
de fun thing is about spying each other's hospital. HAHA!

it's raining outside, it's raining inside my heart.

total sian-ness

2009-11-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

as wat i had mentioned previously, Sis&Me wanted to get a bunny.
after further discussions, we had decided to have hamsters instead, for hamsters being more easy to manage.
hence, we headed to vivo's pet safari dis afternoon.
upon reaching, we were received by their promoters.
they introduced to us GuineaPigs instead coz they dun bite and they are calm pets.
soo sis and me decided on having a GuineaPig.

things started to go wrong...
dis girl promoter, which looks pretty much like a PartTimer cum student started psycho-ing us to buy dis and dat, sounding as if if we dun buy, de GuineaPig will not survive.
she sounded patient initially but her attitude tuned when we aren't gonna buy de stuffs she asked us to buy.
wat i wana say is dat we are realli sincere in buying dis pet home and take responsibility to it.
however, there's always a budget to de things you buy right?
do you think it's necessary to buy toys for de GuineaPig at dis moment?
do you think it's necessary to buy 2GuineaPigs at a time when you dun even have any experience?
do you think it's necessary to buy a 80bucks worth of cage for jus only 1GuineaPig when de price of de cage cost even more den de GuineaPig itself?
do you think it's necessary to buy a cleanser to jus clean de cage?
pissed off wif de girl's attitude, we left de place not long later.
thinking of it back now, i was too good to still apologize to her.
i bet she will be talking bad about us straight after we left de store.

honestly speaking, i was realli mad over her sucky attitude but i had indeed learnt a lot today.
i realized i shouldn't be wasting money on de impractical.
most importantly, i wasn't psycho-ed by her words which i believe de old me will definitely give in to wat she suggested.
now dat Sis&Me are sure of getting a GuineaPig, we will Plan&Prepare a Nice&Cozy home for de GuineaPig.
having de knowledge i had gained today, when everything's in place, we will den buy de animal home.
trust me, we are definitely not gonna buy de animal home on impulse.
if i had bought it home today, it reflects clearly dat i'm still not thinking maturely.

anyway, i was supposed to head out wif my BFF.
unfortunately, she wasn't feeling dat well and she hasn't been feeling well these while.
i had been pretty worried actually.
however, i noe she'll be in good state under de care of her mum.
at least i noe things won't be dat worse as dat time when her mum wasn't around.
no matter wat, i'll keep her in my prayers... :0

i, will want to continue to how things were like.

honest

2009-11-17T18:42:00.003+08:00

it's tuesday and i had jus updated my blog wif a new post on sunday. LOL!
i didn't expect time to pass dis fast.
i completed my DMID assignment presentation dis morning.
it's de worst persentation i had presented soo far.
i think i spoke less den 3mins.
anyway, it's already over.
i'm having a VB WrittenTest 2moro, same goes to de Java students too.
soo right after dat, we are having a critic session. =(

someone asked me why i haven't been blogging about my relationship life.
afterall, we are still teenagers.
it's perfectly normal to speak about ur relationship life in ur own blog.
yea, and i realized i had never been open about my relationship life.
being frank here, i dun fancy blogging about my relationship life in my blog.
it's something rather personal i feel.
i would prefer venting it all out in my diary.
i'm not trying to act some secrecy, perhaps dat's de way how i handle my life.

someone asked me whether am i attached.
who cares wat's de answer? and i'll never hide de answer.
yes, i'm currently seeing a nice chap and things are doing fine for us.
as long as 2 people are spending nice moments wif each other, wat's soo much about being together as a couple or not?
it's wat i have been believing in ever since my failed relationships had taught me to.
does status realli matters soo much?

somehow there's some guilt in my heart.
dat's becoz there's dis person i can't let go.
he's a guy i had a liking for since i entered poly.
i guess many noes pretty well who am i referring to.
although i dun noe how he feels, it's a feeling i can't forget.
and trust me, i tried many attempts to forget.
honestly speaking, i wouldn't noe how long will i take to forget him too.

i noe it's something pretty unfair for dat silly chap.
soo stop telling me to be a nice girl to him.
i'm still working on a solution to it.
solution to a relationship isn't jus 2=1+1.
give me some time and i'll work things out eventually.

jus let me be honest to myself for once.

sunday

2009-11-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

it's sunday again, a day for updates. HAHA!
i had been pretty much obsessed over games in FB.
FishVille is a game introduced by my sis.
it's about maintaining a aquarium.
soo many fishes, my aquarium is getting more colourful and interesting.
and ya, 7 of my 30 fishes died today. =(
IcyTower is a game i came across in de LectureHall.
i called it de jump-jump game. LOL!
it's all about jumping as high and as fast as possible till de top.

jus some updates about de week i had spent.
UI Presentation went smooth... =)
some small changes to be made to our UI here and there.
overall MR.W commented dat our team's performance is AboveAverage.

ohya. sis and me are planning to get a pet bunny.
of all de pets we had reared, we never had a bunny before.
and dis time, we are realli serious over it.
i still remember how we used to discard our pet turtles and chicks when we are young.
i'll still have some regrets thinking of it now.
why was i such an irresponsible kid?
no matter wat, i think we are mature enough to handle a pet now.
trust me, i'm gonna do a good job dis time!
but de problem is, where are we gonna get realli nice white bunnies?
recommendations please, anyone?

to say is easier den to do.

UI

2009-11-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

it's week4, wednesday.
i'll be presenting UI Prototype 2moro wif my team.
& veri soon after dat, coding will start.
honestly speaking, i dun have much confidence.
anyway, enough of projects larh!

my life had been getting a little too much of ups&downs.
there were too much movies last week.
while times got eased dis week.

alright, i guess i'm having some wednesday blues.
i need someone to talk to badly. =(

wat else more can i do?

sun

2009-11-07T20:12:00.003+08:00

2moro is sunday again. HAHA!
and it's week4 de day after 2moro.
i have to agree dat time passes real fast since school reopened.
rushing for one class after de other is like a daily routine.

i had been pretty stressed over my sem project.
i noe i'm not capable of doing my individual implementation.
i can't cross my own barrier.
i can't stop myself from getting worried, getting panicked.
i guess, i can only do things one step at a time and i think i should do things one step at a time.
many said they'll be there to help me, appreciated yea.
alright, i think i should buck up!
i shouldn't let my own personal feelings affecting my team anymore.

ohya! i finally watched de korean tsunami show.
first 1.5hrs of show was pretty lengthy and draggy.
de exciting part only comes in during de last 30mins.
i can say de scene was pretty much astonishing.
power of nature can be soo frightening.
we should treasure wat we have now.
fyi, dis's de 2nd film in my life dat i had teared.

我不知道要怎样才能把那想念丢掉

com

2009-11-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

i'm realli happi dat my lappy is back on my table once again!
but at de same time, OS had been changed to xpPro.
i'm still trying to get use to using xpPro's interfaces.
soo now, i need not have to bring my dad's super heavy lappy to school anymore!
coz, i have VS05&08 successfully installed in my lappy! =)

alamak, my flu's getting no better.
it's been like running nose all these while.
it can be quite irritating at times. =(

caught some realli nice films for de past few days.
PokerKing & MyGirlfriend'sAnAgent.
i think it's de company dat matters.
if you're watching de film wif someone you're comfortable wif, it will be a pleasant one.
on de opposite, you will want de film to end asap. agree?

anyway, my house had changed a new fridge. =P
it's realli larger dis time but at de same time, it looks quite empty inside.
hence, dad&me decided to stock up some stuffs for de fridge.
eventually, we bought 100bucks of necessaries from FairPrice. OMG!

oh! i exchanged my phone wif sis.
wana try back using Nokia phone.
no worries, it's jus temporary larh. HAHA!
i think sis's phone looks too feminine on me.

KaKi msn-ed me in de morning!
you guys must be curious who's KaKi right?
she's my primary school friend who went back HK for her studies.
she was my partner and my best friend in primary school.
i'm sure she's one of those people i will never forget in my life.

soo right now, i'm rushing out de UserInterface for my sem's project.
painting UserInterface on VS is realli tedious. =(
being de leader again, feeling dat de responsibilities are heavy is unavoidable i guess.
but i hope i can be a better leader dis time round, a leader who will give support to her members and lead de team well.

i'm still not used to my new hairstyle.
de straightness, de bang, de overall look.
& it's night class 2moro again. =(
btw, my eyes are closing soon~
oops, wat a long post today...

finally, i noe wat my heart realli wants.

better

2009-10-28T19:10:00.002+08:00

good news!
i'm getting better from my flu. =)
at least, i won't shiver in de air-con room.
stayed at home de whole day yst.
completed many tasks like de UseCaseDiagram and 2moro's presentation slides.

went to sign my resignation letter today.
for some reason, i haven't been wanting to mention dis my blog.
yes, i left tcc. =(
and it's something real saddening.
i will definitely miss every single soul there.
these 7months, i gained a lot a lot.
from a nobody, i became a somebody.
too many people to thanks, let's jus skip de formality.
people ask, why do you cry? it's jus part&parcel of life.
i will answer, though dis's not my first job, it's de first job dat i feel soo much for.

headed to my old place to get a haircut coz i think my hair had been pretty much a problem to me nowadays.
practically a new hairstyle.
BANGS! omg! LOL!
can you imagine me having BANGS?
i'm swear i'm still not used to my new hairstyle.
i look exactly when i was a small girl.
i feel soo young now. HAHA!
i bet my classmates will be shocked by my new hairstyle larh.
but no matter wat, i still needa face de music 2moro.

will you still remember?

sick

2009-10-27T15:10:00.003+08:00

look at de time now.
i'm supposed to be in school now.
de reason why i'm blogging at dis point of time is non other den being sick.
yea, i'm down wif flu. =(((
i'm feeling soo soo sick right now.

monday blues...

sun

2009-10-25T22:34:00.006+08:00

it's sunday already. =)
time seems to be like not enough.
anyway, i had been pretty busy these few days.
to be in exact, i should be busy shopping.
it had realli been some time since de last time i went shopping wif my family.
soo yst, we shopped all de way from Orchard's CentrePoint to Orchard's ION.
it seemed like we had soo much things to buy. HAHA!
mum even bought me de havaianas slippers i always wanted.
we were beat tired when we finally reached home at 8plus.

and for today, dad brought us out for buffet again.
ya, it's buffet again.
dis time, we had buffet at a hotel opposite ParkwayParade.
i can say they served realli nice local dishes.
not forgotten will be their snow crabs.
perhaps it's de season of alaska snow crabs ba.
honestly speaking, i would prefer to taste them in Japan.

and for fri, i had only 2hrs of OS lecture.
intially i planned to skip coz i didn't wana go school jus for a 2hrs lecture.
however, sis managed to persuade me to attend lecture although i was still late.
reached home at around 11plus and we headed to town.
we had lunch at swensens. =)
met up wif sis's uni classmates.
they are indeed funny people and they dun looked like they are uni students.
we cliqued realli well i think.

and for wed, all classes were cancelled.
hence, i met up wif ahgeok and her sis.
we had lunch at tcc.
afterwards, we went to have some shopping at ION as i wanted to buy a lappy's carrier.
it's a long story why i needa get myself a lappy's carrier.
ohya. yeaps, it's ION again.
i had been there like 3times in a week already.
i used my pay and bought some stuffs for my family.

sometimes, some things are meant to be like dis.

school

2009-10-20T19:45:00.002+08:00

school had been pretty fine soo far.
basically, i enjoy school larh.
even de bickering wif classmates can be soo interesting.
they made me realize i'm actually facing some kind of communication problem wif human beings.
ohya! i saw LiYan at SouthCanteen.
it jus feels good to see her. =)
lecturers had been emphasizing de importance of dis sem due to year3's FYPJ and IPP.
honestly speaking, i dun think i'm ready for it.
somehow, de thought of being a year3 student still frights me.
anyway, dat will be some time later soo i can stop thinking about it for de meanwhile.

when will be de day i'll hear ur answer?

sian

2009-10-19T08:32:00.002+08:00

school's starting later.
my class starting at 1pm, finishing at 8:30pm.
i kinda look forward to de studying days, but definitely not de project&assignment days.
i have soo much to talk to ahgeok.
i haven't been speaking to her lately.
she's my best buddy in nyp. HAHA!

alright, jus a short post for de time being.
no more about work...
& i had made up my mind.

most precious thing to me is you.

out

2009-10-16T08:08:00.002+08:00

finally, i caught a movie yst.
town-ed wif sweet and caught 500DaysOfSummer.
it's a pretty LOL film actually. HAHA!
but overall de movie is fine for me.
anyway, i had a great time out wif sweet.
however, i was too poor to buy anything at dat point of time.
hence, it was plainly sweet buying dis and dat for me.

before meeting her, i met up wif classmates to buy next sem's notes.
though some didn't turn up but it's nice seeing classmates again.
it's pretty heavy to carry 6 stacks of books around.
i regretted for not heading home to put down all de books first.
soo it ended up sweet carrying one of de stacks for me.

it's realli hard to hang on when de people closest to you dun even give you a single word of encouragement or support.
now, it's dad.
i dun think i'm still a kid coz i noe my priorities and limits well.
i jus wish to be treated like a young adult, given wif more respect and say.
de funniest thing is, i'm turning 19 in few months' time.
i wish to hear, 'how's ur job today?' rather den 'quit ur job' or 'dun work closing huh'.
tell me, how long more can i hang on?
honestly speaking, i dun have much more energy to retaliate anymore.

i... can't.

new day

2009-10-14T08:27:00.003+08:00

hurray! 2moro's my OFF day.
sad thing is, pay's not here soo i'm not heading anywhere.
good thing is, i slept well last night.
it seems like a load off my mind after seeing sweet's fine.

soo today, i'm working from 12:30 to 6.
it's 5.5hrs again!
right now, i'm doing fine alone in SectionB.
not for sure if it gets crowded. LOL!

ohya! timetable's finalised.
actually, i dun realli like dis sem's timetable.
every monday and thursday are long days.
1 to 8:20 and 9 to 6.
i think i gotta re-adjust my body clock again.
first class of de day, 2hrs of AccountingLecture@SBM.

boy, i missed you.

no pay

2009-10-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

2nd post of de day.
i jus wana say i'm having an ease of mind finally.
i went over to visit sweet before work today.
brought over some porridge and sandwich.
i'm glad to see her doing fine.
i think i can have a good night's rest tonight.

there's no pay today.
soo unexpected.
feeling soo poor nowadays. =(

anyway, dad fetched me home today.
free ride. =)
he complains dat his petrol is even more expensive den my transport fare.
HAHA!

i think of you.

new day

2009-10-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

today is a new day.
i hope it will be a happier day for me.
i think i had been pretty tensed up enough.
or perhaps, it might be jus some MondayBlues!

i was doing closing wif Pian & Rudy last night.
it's nice doing closing wif de people you will enjoy their company wif.
i completed those closing stuffs pretty early, or even de earliest closing i ever had.
we can't timeout earlier den our scheduled time hence we waited like 45mins.
luckily sis's ds came in useful at de right time.
& i graduated from SectionB!

timetable's released!
night classes on monday.
i prefer it to be on a friday.
accounting stuffs, needa head to SBM block.
i hate to walk all de way to SBM block.
somemore, it's gonna be like few times a week.
anyway, i jus gotta shut up and accept it.

talk to me.

negatively

2009-10-12T22:57:00.004+08:00

to be honest, i haven't been feeling well emotionally these few days.
dat explains my unusual performance on sat's shift i guess.
i realised i haven't been smiling lately.
worse still, i dun even feel like talking either.
wat's happening to me?
i need someone or something to make me smile.
i think i need to have a big laugh off my mind.
my whole mind seems to be occupied wif something but i myself dun even noe wat's my mind occupied wif.
or is it coz my life is getting boring nowadays?

it's 11pm now.
i'm turning in soon.
i wonder how's sweet doing...

i'm sorri.

everyday

2009-10-11T21:52:00.004+08:00

apparently i had been posting about my life almost everyday i think.
perhaps it's due to de boredness i'm facing.
actually i prefer writing into my diary coz i believe there's always a limitation to wat you can say in ur blog.

anyway, i jus finished packing my cupboard.
clearing last sem's stuffs and creating space for next sem's stuffs.
papers are all over de place.
i think i have to cut down my paper usage.
timetable's still not released yet!

btw, de conversation i had wif LiYan yst came across my mind suddenly.
i dun hide de fact dat my mum doesn't like me to work.
it's my stubbornness i noe dat's driving me on.
i admit i have de desire to leave, but dat's in de past, not now.
i have yet to achieve anything.
de last stage is bar and i noe clearly dat's where i wana reach.
although i noe dat day may not come easy and it will not come easy, i still wana hang on.
reason for it being, i wana be someone i'm proud of.

sweet's realli sick dis time.
i'm worried sick.
i hope i can be at her side now, taking care of her, watching over her.
i dun think i'm a good friend to her.
i can't be at her side when she needs company.
wat kind of good friend am i? =(
i always say i'll be there for her but where am i when she's down at bed?
i always say i hate people talk more den they take action but wat else can i do for her?
i'm actually at work...
i'm actually only messaging her...
i'm mad at myself, i'm disappointed wif myself.

tell me, wat else can i do?

B2

2009-10-10T20:58:00.002+08:00

Day2 without SM.
today, LiYan & Pian & Me were working together in SectionB.
i'm sorri towards not waking up initially.
eventually, Pian managed to wake me up.
honestly speaking, i was feeling stress coz there were like soo many eyes watching over us.
to be true, nobody likes to be watched while working right?
not as if i have eyes grown on de back of my head.
enough of work! it pissed me off ar!

i'm currently waiting for my mac delivery to reach.
my stomach's groaning loudly...
it's all coz of bro's undecisiveness larh.

yeah! i'm not working 2moro. =)
SM likes to put me on work on sunday.

everything will be jus fine.

working

2009-10-09T18:31:00.000+08:00

i'm back home!
been asked to go home early coz there are too many people on shift.
Day1 without SM.
everything's still manageable.

next week's schedule is out.
i can only say it's gonna be a harsh week awaiting me.
thursday is my only OFF day.
why is my OFF day always on thursday? HAHA!
but as compared to others, i think i must treasure having soo many working days.

my timetable's not released yet.
i'm only aware of my electives.
i wonder how will next sem's timetable be like.
will there still be night classes?
actually night classes will be good for me coz my dad will definitely be fetching me home.
i kinda misses school food and my classmates. LOL!

yesh, i'm utterly disappointed in you.
receiving too much disappointment from you dat i realli have de urge put a stop to everything between us.
you doubt my feelings, you doubt my true heart.
but do you noe, i dun simply forget a person jus like dis, especially someone i had once seriously wanted to treasure.
you make me feel like i'm not making a single effort and only indugling in my work.
honestly speaking, how much effort had you put in too?
haven't you realise you had been constantly on my mind?
no doubt dat my working hours are irregular but did you even bother to even noe and remember wat are my working days and hours?
i'm sick and tired of reminding you again and again.
every reminder is a pierce to my heart.
i think i had gave you enough chances to prove me wrong.
why dun you understand dat why am i giving you soo many chances when i can simply find a guy who will definitely do better den you?

off day

2009-10-08T09:13:00.002+08:00

i'm currently enjoying my off day.
today is my OFF day. HAHA!
perhaps gonna catch a movie wif my sibling.
i haven't been watching one lately and i had been realli craving for it.

i had fun during yst's closing.
closing job was finished much earlier den expected.
we were like waiting to timeout.
headed to IB@tcc for dinner-cum-supper wif Pian, HuiRu and Rum.
i had PenneMamaMia! =)
left early to meet my sis to head home together.
luckily we managed to reach home before 12.

today looks like it's gonna be a nice day.
though de weather might be a little hot.
i suddenly thought of our MonthlySpecial, BleedingMaggots.
no worries, it's actually a mango-cum-raspberry smoothie.
it's realli a veri nice drink jus like SummerTreat.
i missed de tase of SummerTreat a lot.

i wana go exercise!
i haven't been exercising.
i think i'm gaining weight each day.
i need to cut down on my buffets and late dinners. =(

when will i see you again?

electives

2009-10-07T08:07:00.002+08:00

yea it's on de buzz, electives results are released.
expected, i went into POA and .NET.
unexpected, gl went into LifeScience and .NET.
i'm jus feeling a little down. =(
trust me, i seriously hope for things to turn better.

i'm on closing shift later.
dat means, i can still slack at home for quite some.
my life's kinda no life recently.
i haven't been hanging out wif my friends.
i feel soo sad for myself larh.
even sis is heading out for a picnic.
can someone jio me out?!

short post.
bye...

thanks for dat while.

fun

2009-10-03T09:20:00.002+08:00

i wasn't on closing shift last night and i'm glad i didn't.
i met realli sucky customers yst night.
most were satisfied wif my service actually but some, CMI.
setting work aside, i dun wana my good mood to be spoilt.

dad and sis fetched me home and brought me for dinner.
we had HkCafe again. =)
ohya! we bought de new camera already.
it's de one wif de HighDef video function.
it looks cool larh. HAHA!

i'm craving for movies again.
it had been some time since de last time i caught one.
but, wat are de nice movies in days now?
can anybody update me? LOL!
strictly no horror films alright!

oops! de sky is turning grey.
it means it's gonna rain soon.
eee. i hate rainy weathers.
i will be gloomy too. =(

love is blooming!

buffet

2009-09-28T20:17:00.009+08:00

as usual, we went to have a nice meal in celebration for bro's belated birthday.
we had some international buffet at a hotel in de CityHall vicinity.
they served alaska crab! woo...
i enjoyed de ambiance there.

headed town as dad wanted to get a new digital cam and scanner.
i'm realli disappointed wif de promoters at BestDenki.
both promoters had de same attitude.
they dun give a damm to us.
hence, we left de place without getting anything.

while shopping, i realised there are a lot stuffs i wana buy.
i think i should stop having such horrible desires.
i wana get a havaianas flipflop, num's boston bag, accessories from accessorize, heels from pazzion, etc etc.

work resumes today...
second time to Bank.
road's getting more and more familiar.
HAHA!
i can't imagine i will still get lost in singapore.
work today is pretty smooth sailing larh. =)

i miss my BFF.
i miss catching a movie wif her.
i miss shopping spree wif her.
i miss chatting like nobody's business wif her.
i miss every tiny little thing of her.
i miss nagging at her.
i miss pulling her away from fantasy shops.
although we still message, de feeling is still different when you meet ur BFF in person.
when you have a friend whom you are proud to say she's ur BFF, you'll understand how i feel right now.
i noe it might sound kinda gross here but she's my best friend on earth.
i enjoy her presence and sharing every tiny little bits of my life wif her.
she understands, she listens and she give advises.
i can't believe i had indeed found a friend like her, a friend dat i used to dreamt of one.

watched F1 last night.
dad still suggested to drive pass de PIE Espressway to catch a glimpse.
even if not able to catch a glimpse, hearing de engine sound will jus as well satisfy him.
however, we still decided to head home early to watch it at de television.
dad finally gave up and knocked off at 9.
bro and me hang on and managed to watch de whole race.
my first and ever experience watching F1 and even supporting for a team.
i'm not such a motor fan but bro's enthusiasm influenced me.

ohya. school's starting in another few weeks' time.
i can forsee de piles of projects and assignments awaiting me.
but right now, i'm still enjoying my holidays.
i like de days without thinking of submitting projects and assignments. LOL!

sis's snapshot @ dad's birthday.

sis' snapshot @ bro's birthday.
* fyi: she always snapshot me when i'm playing wif my fingers

i, can't forget you.

leave?

2009-09-25T21:29:00.002+08:00

i enjoy my work, de people, de place.
but it's hard to keep me going when i dun get de support from my family.
i hope to hear a piece of console when i reached home after a day from work, and not grumbles.
it's realli hard to keep going when de people closest to you is trying to pull ur morale down.
i believe, studies is not de root of de problem.
you said it was closing soo you made me hate closing.
in fact, i realised i dun hate closing at all.
i admit initally i jus wanted to prove myself to you all.
but now, i realli love my job and de people there.
i will look forward towards any working shift, to who i'll be working wif.
i noe clearly dat a friend's concern can never be compared wif a family.
somehow, i'm starting to feel more warmth at work.
tell me, do i have to quit my job to please you?

i bought a book today.
it's a story of a poor girl who struggles to live since young.
i enjoy reading such stories.
it will make me wana treasure more de things i'm holding on now.
ChineseCinderalla is one of de more memorable to me.

as i said, i returned to work on thursday.
things were fine.
LiLing and LiYan weren't working. =(
luckily, there was still Impian.
there are like 4 brown shirts now.
why do we need soo many brown shirts?
honestly speaking, if our SM is capable, 2 brown shirts will be more den enough.
oops! i think i said something offensive. did i?
AhYan ar AhYan! when will you be back?!

alright enough of work!
i think i should stop blogging about work.
oh i finished my full course of anti-biotics.
but my throat still hurts a little. =(
i'm having blocked ears too.
my body's weird. LOL!

btw, i had been sleeping earlier den usual these few days.
i'm afraid my 9pm habit is back again.
HAHA!
it's not something bad actually.
eh... it's 10pm now already.

bro and mum had been pretty cranky these few days.
i've been trying to pry wat's happening between them.
i can be definite dat both of them have no clashes wif each other.
wat's up wif my family?!
i hate dis kind of environment.

i hope you were here.

concerns

2009-09-24T08:50:00.002+08:00

thanks for de concern of everybody.
i'm getting well.
and, i'm heading to work today.
i think i'm fit for work dat's why i decided to go back although i'm still on MC.
bad thing is, there's still a little pain at my throat, like a knife poking it.
good thing is, fever had subsided.
i still have to continue wif my medication especially de anti-biotics.

it was bro's birthday yst. =)
de real celebration only starts on sunday for our family.
hence, he went out to have some celebration wif his friends.
he brought back presents!
i love to see presents though it's not meant for me.
LOL!

results are out.
GPA dropped.
i admit, i was kinda lazy.
fortunately, i scored a B+ for my project module and a C for IPNET, de module i hated de most.
i seriously thought i'm gonna flunk IPNET's paper.
i hope dad will understand and doesn't flare up.

i need ur concern at de right time.
why dun you noe when is de right time?

sick

2009-09-22T08:40:00.002+08:00

right now, i'm running a fever.
and i dun noe why i'm here blogging.
perhaps, i dun feel like lying on de bed.
i didn't attend work yst.
feeling damm shitty.
my head is like spinning round and round.
mum called up stall and talked to SM.
soo mum's bringing me to see a doctor later.
i bet de doctor will say like having not enough rest, drinking not enough water and stuffs.
when was de last time i fell ill?
it was during de H1N1 peak period when i caught a flu.
but definitely, dis time felt worst.
i wonder wat's wrong wif myself dis time.

sunday, de worst day of my working life.
SM blew up on me.
maybe i was too frightened and dat causes my fever.
LAME...
i admit i brought de guest to de wrong table soo it's my fault.
but, it wasn't something you should blow up on me.
broke a glass but luckily he was too busy venting his temper on others.

bro's birthday is around de corner.
i hope i'll get well by den.
i realli wana celebrate a nice birthday wif him. =)

right now, i'm heading back to my bed to rest while waiting for my mum to return from work and bring me to de doctor.
wat time is she gonna be back?

my heart still beats for you.

private sales

2009-09-19T09:39:00.003+08:00

private sales ended.
i dun wish to mention more.
if i blogged yst, i might wana elaborate more.
but not now at de moment.
since it's over, it's over.

met up wif sweet after de private sales.
we had dinner at ION's hk cafe.
de food is good but de service is a little kinda slow.
de hot piping baked rice and prawn dumplings.
i never had such nice meals for quite some time already.

and yst, i brought my family to hk cafe again at PS.
eventually, i signed up for their membership like finally.
they have veri good rebates. =)

soo today, i'm working closing wif my beloved.
LL and LiYan!
it'll be soo perfect if Impian and huiru are around too.
HAHA! fat hope~

i hope i never receive such disappointment from you.

blogger

2009-09-16T19:29:00.002+08:00

as usual, i was stationed in B2 dis afternoon.
however, zack left me at de wrong time.
a big crowd came in and i started to panic.
i understand LL meant well by asking SM to move me out to B1 rather den see me struggling in B1.
hence, i came out to B1.
i realised dat there are lots more for me to learn and improve.
i feel realli bad today.
i wanted to do well but...
2moro's private sales.
my first ever attempt.
i wonder how will things be like.
i need de support from everyone in stall.

meeting sweet 2moro.
i'm soo happi. =)
there's soo much i wana pour to her.
i think, i can only talk to her.

ClassChalet was fun yst.
although i didn't manage to meet LiYan, i guess we had fun individually.
as promised, dad fetched me home.
wif shingto and geoklan sitting at de back.

the memories, i'd kept them.

gogogo

2009-09-15T09:15:00.003+08:00

work work & work.
i'm sick and tired of speaking about work in my blog nowadays.
not coz i hate my work but dis's de only place i can vent all my unhappiness.
no worries, he didn't blow up yst.
i'm jus trying to do some reflection here.
yea, i'm starting to miss Rum, jus like how i missed Taha.
ohya speaking about Taha, he came over to IS last night.
you can't imagine how excited i was when i saw him.
it seemed like long time not seeing my big brother.
i can see dat he realli missed IS...
back to Rum, i feel kinda contridicted.
honestly speaking, like wat Impian said, she had left for good.
i believe she'll have a better development ahead, definitely not at IS.
however, IS team needs her support and lead.
i wasn't given a chance to say a proper goodbye to her. =(

ClassChalet in a few hours time.
i seriously hope dat i'll noe where's de exact location.
LiYan's ChaletHouse is at A while mine is at P.
is it gonna like veri far apart?
...

i'm gonna continue watching my drama now.
i'm kinda addicted to those korean drama wif de storyline setting in de past korea.
and right now, i'm watching dis series called 女人天下.
it's a total of 144eps and i have no idea i'm at which ep now.
HAHA!

speak to me, even about de tiniest thing on earth.

rum

2009-09-14T09:00:00.003+08:00

supposedly, i thought i wasn't on shift yst.
however, i received a call from him de night before at 11plus hearing dat i'm working closing de next day.
i planned to get some rest after working for many night shifts.
LiYan told me a shocking news.
actually, i'm not surprised.
i predicted for it but i didn't expected to be dat fast.
especially when she had jus returned.
i believe, we had lost a good captain who always defend de rights and corrects de wrong.

dis week's schedule is out.
i'm practically working everyday.
Monday: 4-9
Tuesday: OFF (ClassChalet)
Wednesday: 12-5
Thursday: 12-6 (PrivateSales)
Friday: 10.30-4
Saturday: 2.45-9.45

alright, LiYan's off for her ClassChalet for de next 3days.
dat means, i won't be working wif her for de coming 3days.
luckily, there's still LL, PianPian and AhRu. =)
i think it's nice working wif de people dat you are realli comfortable wif.

honestly speaking, i'm still not confident of handling PrivateSales.
it's gonna be my first try.
wif Rum not around, i'm even more doubtful of myself now.

will be meeting sweet dis coming thursday after work.
i wana have a BFF's outing wif her. =)
she's my BestFriendForever on earth!

ClassChalet's 2moro.
and LiYan says her ClassChalet will be at de same place as mine too.
HAHA!
interesting... and maybe i can go and find her. =)
how i wish i can go NightCycling wif classmates 2night.

i dun want things to fall apart for us.